Soon A Change

So as the title suggests, soon again I will be attempting to eat better which it is my belief that it will allow me to lose weight.

I’m sitting here late night in my hotel room at DragonCon after having had dinner with friends and went out to have a drink or two with another friend that I’ve come to realize that I’ve had one continuing problem while being here in Atlanta and that is how I’ve felt after almost every meal.  I’ve either over eaten or else what I ate did not agree with me. I’ve also learned that it is now time for tequila and me to part ways which means that I’ve learned that as I’ve gotten older I can no longer handle tequila which was evident as I had a type of margarita during one of my dinners.  Yeah there is a chance that the meal didn’t help but in the morning I was still belching tequila and I continued to feel nauseous for several hours during the day.

Another disappointing note as DragonCon 2015 draws to an end, I was unable to give blood which I had been able to do in the years past.  Which meant that I couldn’t get their wonderful T-shirt but the main reason was that I was very low on my iron reading.  So why was I low, well I’ll tell you why.  I had a nervous outbreak of pimples…yeah, I know at my age but still they came up and made their appearance just over 2 weeks before I left for DragonCon.  I could smell the copper and iron in my blood and I remembered that one of my friends had actually been hospitalized when he had too much iron in his  blood so I did my best o make adjustments in my eating habits before I came to DragonCon….bad mistake.  I changed my diet too much and I did not have a high enough amount of iron in my blood after taking iron tablets and eating more iron rich products but after 3 days of trying, I finally had to come to terms that I could not give blood.

So what did this mean for me, it meant that all of the extra money I paid to get on meds for my high blood pressure was almost for naught.  I did the expense of getting on the meds so that I could donate but now I’m not going to worry about it but I will be keeping a closer eye on how I can regulate it through diet and exercise.

However, I won’t be fussing about things too much until I get back home on Wednesday.  I’ll go grocery shopping when I get back and I have one day to plan things since I turn around and go to another convention on Friday in my city and hopefully I won’t get out of control when I’m there.

So this is closing out the bet that I lost to myself and I did learn one thing, if I eat primal, my cholesterol levels go down, my blood pressure goes down and I feel more energized, so I guess I will need to change my lifestyle a little bit.  So for now I’m signing off so that I can get some sleep before I see my friends off for their journey home.

Okay my lack of sleep is catching up with me so I need to crash very soon, so I’m outta here,



Okay I know that I haven’t been keeping up very well in writing and I’ve no one to blame but myself because I get easily distracted.  Look over there…..ahhh, Shiny!   Yeah I get that easily distracted and now with that being said like the title suggests, I know for a fact that I lost the bet with myself and so I do not get the espresso machine that I wanted.

The only good thing about it is the fact that my wallet is happy about it because it means that I will not be spending the money on that because right now my wallet has taken some hard hits this summer.

Excuse #1:   For the last 3 years I’ve had my second vehicle just sitting in the driveway of my house.  In that time I have since learned, about 1 1/2 years ago, why my vehicle was acting up and odds were that it was due to a mistake made by the garage where the car was repaired.  Apparently an air bubble was in the transmission line so when the engine got up to running temperature, it would trap the bubble thus making me lose the use of the gears.  It would basically lock the gears into position and believe me, it is extremely hard to start a vehicle while in third gear.  Then the battery went dead and well my truck was still running and so I just kept on having that repaired.

This year my state is incorporating motor vehicle inspection with registration of my vehicle and so in order to register my car I had to have it inspected and there was no way out of it.  The only good thing was the fact that I wanted to get the car running, so when the tow truck came, we pushed the car out of the driveway and away drove the tow truck driver with my puddle jumper on the back of his truck.  I call my Escort a puddle jumper and there is a good reason why besides it being a name used for a ship on a favorite show of mine, Stargate Atlantis.  Trucks are rear wheel drive and because trucks are so light in the back, then tend to slip and skid when the tires are in water, but my Puddle Jumper has front wheel drive and because it is a manual transmission, it means that I can better control my take-offs and I don’t slip and slide around like in my truck.

So why am I telling you this, well it is because I just go socked with a +$1,000 repair bill for my Puddle Jumper which was good but not really, because I still had to get it inspected and registered.  So I don’t usually drive it as much because I like my truck and it is automatic transmission.  So I’m driving to work about a month ago, happy that I didn’t have to take out a loan from the bank to pay for my repair bill when another problem happened.  Some lady cut in front of my truck on the freeway as I was going 65 mph and then she hit her brakes, although there was no traffic problem, so I slammed on my brakes to avoid hitting her and my brakes locked up.  Do you know how hard it is to get over to the right side of a freeway (4 lanes) when everyone is doing 65 mph or better?  Damn hard is how hard it is.  So by the time I got off the freeway I was almost at the station that I scheduled to work at that evening so I drove into the parking lot of the station and the moment I took my foot off the gas the truck came to a halt.  Yes you could smell that the brakes were burnt up because they would not release.  My life officially sucked that day.  My brakes locking up is the same problem I have been trying to get my garage to fix for the last 18 months because it has been happening any time I had to do an emergency stop or a quick stop.

Now into the shop goes my truck and I’m very thankful that I had my Puddle Jumper ready to go, only I learned that they barely did things to get my Jumper running and now I have to go and do things such as put new sparks plugs in the vehicle and check out a few more minor things and then maybe the engine won’t conk out on me when I have the clutch in.

Excuse #2:   So my Baby Truck, which is what I call it since it is only a V6 engine, was in the shop for about a month.  I kept on hoping that they would not call me for a couple of more weeks but they called and said that the truck was ready to be picked up.  Now my wallet is crying because I had to pay $400 to get my truck out when I thought that the last time I paid to have work done on my brakes was the final fix….apparently not.

So yes I’ve been stressing about my financials big time because I didn’t even know if I would be able to make my yearly pilgrimage to Atlanta for DragonCon.  I tried riding my trike for some relief but that didn’t go too well.  I didn’t get off as early as I wanted and so I got maybe an hour of sleep before I had to get up and load up my brother’s truck so I could make my drive out towards West Texas for my next stage of my riding.

It was a hard ride and I later learned some of the reasons why I struggled with the ride.  It was at an elevation of 4,000 feet and I usually ride at 200 feet which meant that it was hard for me to breathe or even catch my breath.  Then my lack of sleep didn’t help anything either, because I could tell if the elevation or my lack of energy from lack of sleep had anything to do with the ride.  Last of all I was practically falling asleep all the way back on the drive home.  I had stopped a couple of times in cities for potty break and for drink break, heck I even did the tourist thing in Langtry, TX, home of Judge Roy Bean.  Hey they made a movie about it, look it up and enjoy it.

So I’m about 2 1/2 hours out from town and going 80 mph when the truck starts shaking, so I pull over figuring that I have a flat tire but I don’t hear or feel it on the truck.  I pull off the road and check out the tires but everything seems okay, so I get back on the freeway but the truck shakes again as I’m going 70 mph.  I finally find an exit and pull over into Junction, TX where I try to put gas in the machine but of course the card reader wasn’t working right at the machine so I had to go inside and pay and then I’m still trying to figure out what all of the shaking is coming from.

Long story short, I have to drive all of the back roads to get to my home town which normally would have been 2 1/2 hours of driving but instead it becomes almost a 4-5 hour drive as I have to take access roads and back roads and can’t travel above 45 mph.  I have now been up for 21 hours straight with only 1 1/2 hour of sleep the night (morning) I left for the ride in Marathon, TX.  Turns out that the tread was separating from the tire and I was lucky not have had a blow out.

So as you can see, me and vehicles are not going well together, besides I almost went broke putting gas in The Beast which is what my brother calls his Ram 2500 super duty truck.  Yes that means it drinks gas like it was going out of style and my wallet is almost $175 poorer because of the drinking problem The Beast has with gas.

Between my repair bills and gas bills I’m almost broke and still I’m trying to save for DragonCon because I refused to have a credit card.  I like not being in debt, it is a great feeling but sometimes….ouch!

About now you’re probably wondering what all of this has to do with me giving up and crying Uncle when it came to keeping the bet to lose 30 pounds before September 1st.  Well I’m sure that lots of you have the same problem and when the stress really hits, it just keeps you off-balance and no matter what I did, I got an upset stomach about every other day so nothing that I was eating tasted right and this summer I’ve been living on 4-5 hours of sleep a night.  No sleep, financial worries, stomach problems and just being frustrated got the best of me during my bet.

Now this doesn’t mean that I won’t try to get right back on the dieting…excuse me, get back into the better eating habits of times past and maybe something better will happen.  But for now I’m just now coming out of my worrisome slump and will use the few days I have less to investigate a few interesting recipes I’ve been looking at, only I don’t know when I’ll have the time to prepare them.  I know, I know….make time.  Well I’m just not that good of a baker or chef to make time.

All joking aside, I started off good but I find that I’m easily distracted.  I’m hoping that once I get back from DragonCon I will be able to start sleeping and eating better and maybe I can start seeing some results.  Oh I’ll get my espresso machine just not for some time.

I lost the bet with myself but I’m not giving up, I have a more fit person inside of me who is trying to get out.  Apparently she is not ready to make her appearance just yet, but soon I hope.  Hell I just need to win the Power Ball or Lottery big time so I can not stress out about my finances.

Day 100

Okay so here I am at day 100 and I’m wondering what in the hell I have been doing for all of this time…oh wait, I know what I’ve been doing…eating poorly.

Yeah, I’ve got no one to blame but myself for not being on top of things and I know that I should have already achieved my goal by day 100 but I kept on falling backwards and finding one reason or another for me not to eat the correct way.

I had given myself 148 days to lose 30 pounds, a simple 30 pounds and thought, hey this will be easy, no problem.  Unfortunately I kept on putting things off and figuring that I could lose it without any problem but now I’m beginning to wonder if I’m stupid or lazy…wait, I’ve been both.

So I stepped on the scale this morning knowing that I would be in trouble today and I was right.  So far as of this morning I’ve lost a whole 3 pounds…three pounds, how disgusting.

Lately I’ve been realizing that I’ve been waiting too long to get serious about things, even when I had the 5 pound loss but what did I do, I did/ate whatever I wanted and let things slide.  Now that the rush is on I’ve been trying to contain my desire for sweets but keep on trying to find something that works.

I’m beginning to see that I’m about to get desperate and as I get desperate I’ve started doing some checking on the latest and greatest or at least the latest diet way to me.  I noticed something printed in the newspaper and decided why not look into it, maybe they would be offering some new way to lose weight other than the usual stuff which is calories in and calories out.

I was looking at it and went to the web site and was intrigued by the Nutrimost Fat Loss System and was listening to the testimonials and as typical, I was impressed by what most of them were saying.  So hell yes I was curious about what was happening and that was when the waters became very murky.  They continued with the song and dance talking about how great the system was and then they did something that got my attention, they said it doesn’t cost much compared to the cost of your health.  TRAP !!!!

Now they were talking about how they are giving you a discount and tell you to fill out a form and for $26 they can set you up for a consultation and that it normally costs $99.  But wait…there’s more!  Yes in deed when you go in for your consultation you will get a chance to put your hand on their special device which will measure things within your body based on the electrical stimulus that are sent through this device, it will measure the toxicity levels and all sorts of other things and then they will take that information and come up with a diet that is tailored for your weight loss, but they don’t call it a weight loss they call it a health improvement.  They then show a woman cooking a steak and having a couple of slices of tomato and how she takes some drops (I thought they said with no medication, guess taking drops doesn’t count as medicine) and it kills the appetite and in 30 days men can lose up to 40 pounds and in women they can lose up to 40 pounds in about 40 days and best of all you will keep it off.

Then I did some investigation of my own and learned that you have to buy all of these supplements before they tell you the results which basically comes down to eating 500-700 calories a day…calories in and calories out.  Many people are against this because the brain needs more than 500 calories to keep on function at high-capacity.  However, I will say there was something positive that I picked up from this diet system which was to drink alkaline water and that it would help detoxify my system and not leave me feeling quite as thirsty.

I did some research on the internet and learned from several reputable sites that drinking alkaline water can be healthy for your.  It can help flush some of the toxins out of the system but there are as always problems if you drink too much.  It appears that it can help some so I’m trying that to help settle my stomach but I’ve only just begun drinking it.  I’ve tried two different brands, one being chemically enhanced water and the other well sorry to disappoint, it too is artificially enhanced but I will say that the last one taste better.

So I’m going to drink it for a couple of days to try and get my body a little bit more balanced, if that is even possible, and then focus eating better…oh wait, I’m doing that for the last couple of days.

So this is going to be an interesting weekend, I’m hoping that I don’t have to rent a car to go out for my trike ride but if I can’t get my brother’s truck then I just might do that but then again I just might rent a vehicle anyway because I’m not sure if my other vehicle will be out of the shop.

I have a 94 Ford Escort and just had the slave valve replaced on my manual transmission about 3 years ago and started experiencing the same problem of the gears locking up and even when I pressed on the clutch…no let me correct that, when I stood on the clutch it still would not disengage the gear that the vehicle was in, which made it extremely difficult when I can to a stop light because I would have the clutch in, stomping on the brake pedal and then would have to pull the parking brake so I could slow my forward movement to 1 inch every 15 seconds.  Yeah, really a bad situation.  I called the shop and said I’m looking at over $200 in labor to look at the vehicle and seeing that I was still paying off a few loans and notes I had racked up while out of work, I didn’t have the money to spare.  So my Escort sat for 3 years and things started going bad, such as gas, battery died and I was already spending money on getting my 93 truck repaired.  Why the truck, because it was my baby truck and needed help.  Finally came across someone at work who said it sounded like an air bubble was stuck in the transmission fluid and as the engine got hotter, the bubble would go to the top and block any other fluid from flowing through the system.  I learned that too late.  My car had been sitting for just over 2 years so dead battery, bad gas and it needed more things done to it so it had to wait another year.

Escort is in shop getting fixed and I’m on pins and needles because so far the cost is around $1,000 for repair but that was a week ago when they said they were still testing my vehicle.  So why not get a new car or truck?    On my best dealings let’s say that I had a $300/month vehicle payment, that would mean that in 4 months I would have paid more than my repair bill but still would not own the vehicle for several years, 4 or 5 depending on how expensive of a car I wanted.  So my two babies will have to do for now.  My truck will need repair so that is why I can’t take it on long trips and I need it close by should it break down and driving over 300 miles away from home really puts me at risk.

So car worries aren’t helping me much but it is something to work through.  This is putting a little bit more stress on me and probably why I’ve still got a sweet tooth.

Oh, wait a minute, I made a chocolate cake in a mug following the Paleo guidelines but it tasted horrible.  It was dry even with whipped cream on it.  I decided to try another spoonful after lunch with some ice cream on the side but the cake resembled something of a rock, probably because it was rock hard.  The only good thing is that it is low on the net carb count which is good but what isn’t good is the lack moisture in the cake.

I later learned that coconut flour absorbs the moisture in whatever it is used so that is why my mug chocolate cake came out a total disaster.  So I will be changing a few things around, such as cutting down on coconut flour for a couple of reasons.  It was a very dry cake and maybe by cutting back on the coconut flour it will be a touch moister but # 2 reason is because I’m not a big fan of coconut.  As of this date the only coconut that I like is in coconut macaroons, the way I make them.  I’ll be experimenting with things, such as adding cacao butter and tweaking things here and there to satisfy my sweet tooth, but maybe just getting my car back from the shop will help curb my sweet craving.

Let me wrap this up, I’ve been a lazy person and not really focused on my weight loss.  I’ve loss 3 pounds from my start weight although I had also gained 4 pounds more than my start weight.  Now I’ve got to start getting serious if I want my espresso maker with all the bells and whistles (PID) system attached.  I already have a great coffee grinder which I’m still trying to get the grind right but with such a cheap espresso machine it really makes it hard to get things just right.

One last thing which has been bugging the heck out of me has been my inability to sleep.  I would be lucky to get 4 hours of sleep and it usually was interrupted sleep so that didn’t help any either.  Then when I went for my massage the guy puts a slightly weighted silk scarf across my eyes to block out the light and it helps to calm me down.  Hey get your filthy mind out of the gutter, I’m serious, he is a good therapist and has helped me get past my Carpal Tunnel Syndrome without surgery so I believe in him.  So I usually have to have a towel on my pillow, yes I drool from time to time, so I would use the towel for just in case.  Then I folded the towel a couple of times and put it over my eyes to get me to relax and shut out the bright light my neighbor has on the side of the house that shines in my window to make relax.  I’ve even been able to sleep on my back for the last few nights which is great for me.

Any way, by drinking the alkaline water I’ve started drinking more water and you know that does…it flushes the body system and hydrates you.  So here is to a hydrated me and a me getting more sleep and stressing out less.  I’m now in a tight race with myself because I want that espresso machine.  But the better thing would be that I’m in better shape and health at the end of these 48 days.

Sweet Tooth Catastrophe

Just when I thought it was safe to return to sensible eating…duhn, da duhn……along came a birthday party.  I thought it was all covered in my family gathering back in June but I was wrong….wrong, wrong, wrong….WRONG!  Okay so I could have tried a little bit harder at the birthday party and it was bad that I had the bread on the hamburger and a piece of cake with ice cream but other than that I haven’t been too far off.  Okay I’ll be honest, I’ve been fudging a little bit.

I noticed that lately I’ve had a terrible craving for sweet things, not just cake but all sorts of things.  I read a recipe for paleo white chocolate fudge and it sounded wonderful except for one thing…coconut.  I’m one of those weird people who really doesn’t like coconut.  Well let me take that back, I like coconut macaroons especially since I found a great recipe but of course it has lots of bad things in it like sweetened condensed milk and since I like them slightly crunch, I’ve made them that way and that meant adding flour and stuff like that.  Now where was I…..oh yeah paleo white chocolate fudge.

So, at the time I didn’t realize that cacao butter and cocoa butter were the same, or at least that is what the guy at told me when I inquired.  So any way, I thought it was different and since the recipe called for cacao butter, virgin coconut oil and coconut butter, I thought hey, I’ll just substitute butter for the coconut butter and avocado oil for the coconut oil, but then it called for maple syrup to be a part of the mix and I thought I would try agave nectar instead…..WRONG!  The mixture separated so after the 5 hours required for chilling the fudge the separation was evident and the bottom was the nectar which of course did not harden up.  Then I scraped off the nectar and remelted the mixture and made sure that I whisked it really well and then decided that I would take only a small amount and mix it with the maple syrup only after I heated the syrup as it recommended and yes it did reduce some as suggested.  But then the more I looked at it as I poured it into the cups I noticed that it seemed to be separating again, so since I had more, I put the extra aside and decided that I would then mix in cocoa powder and it had a bitter taste since the powder was of course unsweetened, so I added some liquid Stevia and whisked it all real good and put it in muffin cups and put it in the fridge.  I took the last bit of the butter/cacao/oil mix and then just added Stevia and whisked it together and poured it into cups and again put it to rest with all of the others I was experimenting on.

Did you hear that ticking noise, well it was the ticking of the clock to disappointment.  My attempt at making the fudge was a disaster in all three of the different methods.  The only thing I could think of was the fact that I really don’t like coconut so I substituted butter since it said that could be used in lieu of coconut butter.  Maybe in other things but not in this mixture, I think it was the butter and the amount or lack of fat in the product that kept causing the layers of fudge to separate.  But then again I couldn’t quite call it fudge because it never really became fudge.  The closest attempt was the chocolate one and that was horrible because all of the cocoa powder settled to the bottom of the cup.

I’ve written to the author of the recipe to see if she can make a suggestion because I don’t like coconut.

I know, how dumb is that, a person who is trying to go Primal/Paleo not like coconut?  Well it happens especially to this gal.  The only way I’ve been able to tolerate coconut oil is when it is refined and doesn’t have much of the coconut taste or smell.  Now don’t get me wrong, I like the smell of coconut I just don’t like the taste and no matter how hard I try, I just can’t handle the taste.

So this morning I finished making my Keto Diet Tortillas this morning, or more correctly I finished mixing the dough last night and separated them into their little bundles and threw them in the refrigerator as suggested.  I find that I can make them up in advance and then roll out a few at a time, which was what I did this morning.  So from the three bundles that I had, I ended up with five tortillas which are about 1.5 net carbs and something that I can work with.  Don’t worry I’m getting there, so just be patient with my story telling.  So I want chicken chorizo and know because it doesn’t have a lot of fat in it, it will stick to the pan and then the eggs will stick to the pan and we know what a pain that is to clean.  So I had accidentally picked up virgin coconut oil which had been solid but in my kitchen it quickly turned to liquid minutes after my bringing into my kitchen.  Hey it is not a central air/heat house, it was made in the early 50’s so window units rule.  Now back to the bad story, so I put the virgin unrefined coconut oil in the pan and start to cook the chorizo and then add the eggs and notice that the eggs are sticking some but not as much as expected.  The saddest thing is that I was smelling the coconut oil over the smell of the chorizo but I thought that was probably because I got the smell stuck in my nose and figured it was my imagination.  So I filled my diet tortillas with the chicken chorizo and eggs and added some shredded cheese and sat down and took a big bite of…..COCONUT.  The taste of coconut was overwhelming but I wasn’t going to let the relatively good breakfast go to waste.

About two hours later I was regretting my decision to have breakfast and despite my taking something for the upset stomach it was giving me, the feeling did not go away.  Two more hours later I had to take some more antacid tablets and about twenty minutes later things were okay.  I can’t believe how bad I was feeling from this and then I remembered that the last time I bought unrefined coconut oil I had to throw it out and just finished up the refined coconut oil.

So my lesson is learned, don’t cook/bake or use coconut oil if I want to avoid a tummy ache.  As the title suggests, my sweet-tooth is going into overdrive and wanting to be fed only every time I turn and look for some sweet Paleo/Primal friendly recipe what do I come across it asking for…..coconut oil or coconut butter.  Why can’t it be cacao butter, something that I have and it has a hint of chocolate to it which I love.  The fact of the matter is that I want chocolate.

Oh did I tell you about my break down on Thursday???  No, well let me tell you that it was a very rough day at work and I was just about to fall over the edge and explode because I was frustrated by the people on the phone who never listened to a thing I said and almost all of them chose to curse me out…of course I hung up when they started doing it, but that didn’t mean that I didn’t hear them say all sorts of rude things to me.  Alright, you with me now…frustrated almost beyond control.  I decide that I’m going to have some of the chocolate which one of the guys has been selling for the last month and it was my favorite kind, the one filled with caramel.  So I unwrap the candy bar and I see that the chocolate has oxidized which means that it is old but usually it does not affect the taste of the candy.

It must have been a mental thing seeing the white blotches on the chocolate because when I bit into it I could tell that something was off then I chomped on it and very quickly I could tell that it was just nasty.  Now I have chocolate and have worked with it before, even had it to where the moisture had gone out of it and it appears faded and looking too light but it never tasted as horrible as what I had just put in my mouth.  I grabbed the trashcan and spit out the piece in my mouth and threw the candy bar away.

Now one would think that this would cure my need for chocolate but it only increased it and so on Saturday when I went to the parties I had chocolate cake and ice cream.  Yeah it tasted good and I would later regret it but it almost made up for the horrible work week that I just had last week.  I said almost, give me a break.

So now I’m on the hunt for something sweet that will still keep me within Primal/Paleo acceptable range but things are not looking so good.  Oh and I think because I ate so many bananas as a kid, this is the reason I really don’t like the taste of bananas any longer.  It doesn’t make me sick but the smell is not very pleasing to me, which is also why I have to be careful about how I chose my sunblock lotion.

I have cacao butter now I just need to find some recipes where it is acceptable for me to substitute cacao butter because I want and right now I feel that I need chocolate taste.

My sweet-tooth is getting the best of me so I had better find something quick that is acceptable or else I’m going to fall really hard.  Maybe I should borrow some of my great niece’s pool toys to cushion my fall.  I’m walking a thin line and hope I can keep on walking this line until I get past my need, no make that my craving for something deliciously decadent chocolate dessert.

I’m hanging in there…barely.

Return To Sensible Eating

Finally I’m going back to sensible eating which means back to eating Primal.  I was encouraged by one of my co-workers while working at another station and she is eating low carb too.  Well I was doing great and then things started to get pressed for time because my family was having their reunion.  Now don’t get me wrong, it is great to see family and it is also great that they do most of the cooking, but usually it not the easiest thing to fit 20 people into a small two bedroom house which is sort of hard but keeping the place cool and trying to have a conversation is not always the easiest thing to do.

I survived but not my stomach.  They arrived on a Friday night and so we went out to eat and I couldn’t resist the shrimp po-boy but I only had about 5-7 french fries.  The bread was too much and if I had thought ahead, I would have trimmed off some of the bread but by the time I thought about it, it was too late and in my tummy.  The next day didn’t start off too bad but quickly went downhill.  Chicken fajitas, pulled pork fajitas, rice, guacamole, chips, queso, soda, birthday cake, ice cream, cake balls and oatmeal raisin cookies were all a part of the day/evening meal.

Of course I ate too much but at least I got out and walked around the block to ease the pressure in my tummy.  We then went to play miniature golf at a course we used to play with as kids with my father.  It was lots of fun and we were sweating so much while we were there and doing our best not to be eaten by the mosquitoes and again we were sweating.  Came back home where my nephew joined us after getting off of work and repairing a flat tire on his car and we grazed again over the whole selection listed above.

The next day was a repeat of the day before with the grazing only we didn’t have to go outside to cook the chicken like I did the day before.  Then the gang started leaving for their home cities and I still had to go outside and clean up the grill from the day before.  I think that I went through five changes of clothes because I was constantly having to go outside but at least with it being at my house I was able to change clothes.  I think two of my other brothers are going to bring a change of clothes the next time just in case.  Oh and last but not least, I had a root beer float and several more cookies before the end of the evening and felt like I was going to explode.

Unfortunately it was not Blue Bell ice cream for the float and so the cream content wasn’t as high and I have learned that I need a high fat/cream content for my lactose intolerant system not to try and kill me.  So bring on the bloating and feeling horrible…at least for a short time.  I had to take a laxative to help things move through the system.

When I got ready for bed last night I was 221.9, talk about my eyes popping out of their socket…yeah just like the cartoons.  I would have liked to have given myself another day of feasting but after stepping on the scale last night I decided that was the end of the reckless eating.

This morning I stepped on the scale after things worked through my system, if you know what I mean, and it showed my weight to be 216.7, which isn’t great but it is not in the 220’s.  So I started eating better again and although I was still a bit hungry earlier today, I think I’m doing okay for the moment.  Now comes the hard part, as the night wears on my appetite seems to get out of control so I will be trying hard tonight to keep it under control.

I thought I was doing good this afternoon when I had a salmon/Gorgonzola cheese patty thinking it was great and healthy but then I saw that it had 21 grams of carbs and only 2 grams of fiber.  Well if I was trying to do an extreme ketosis day today, I failed because extreme ketosis usually happens by keeping the carbs at 20 or below.  So what, I liked it and had some green beams with mushrooms to go along with it.  Then for dinner I had 2 Keto tortillas with chunks of chicken/lettuce and dressing, a salad and the left over green beans.  I know that I went over 20 carbs but stayed under 50 carbs…so far.

Maybe if I drink more water only in small amounts at a time it will fill up my tummy besides flushing out my system.  All I can do is try.

I took a look at my calendar and noticed that tomorrow will mark day 86 of 148 I gave myself to lose 30 pounds.  So I’ve got to focus and yes I know that losing more than 10 pounds a month isn’t good but when you’re as heavy/fat/fluffy as I am that is probably the only time I will lose more than 10 pounds a month.  I’ve got a lot to lose and a little over 60 days to lose it.  I know that I should have been more focused before and always came up with good excuses so guess I’m going to really pay the price by doing the big push and really watching things instead of doing it in a relaxed manner.

I did learn something this weekend, my niece is considering putting scratch-off winner on her resume because she seems to do pretty good, no she is not rich but she has good luck and usually comes out a few dollars ahead of what she spends.  So I thought maybe I’ll start walking to the store and buying a few tickets as an excuse to get myself out to exercise.

Oh and I did learn another thing…the Primal Wonder Bread isn’t really that wonderful.  I decided to do some carb counting and have even measured out the size of the dough and learned that it is 0.315g of carbs per ounce.  Normally you wouldn’t think too much about that but think about it.  I measured out a small amount, about the size of a golf ball and it was 41 grams so that means that each of those small little biscuits comes out to almost 13 grams of carbs.  That is a lot especially when I’m trying to keep my body in rapid weight loss mode.

So that nice recipe is not going to work with me…too bad.  But my Ketosis Diet Tortillas will just have to do for now as they only have 1.5 net carbs.

A little worried also because I put my car into the shop to have the fluids changed as the vehicle hasn’t been running for 3 years.  I went into shock when the garage called and said that cost would be $1,600 and started naming off the things I needed changed.  I told them I wasn’t buying a new car, and that the reason it is in there is partially their fault because they didn’t properly bleed the transmission fluid when they replaced the slave valve but one of the mechanics said I was wrong and that it would cost me $400 to fix the problem, which I didn’t have.  So now 3 years later the garage has whittled the bill down to starting at $1,000 to be repaired.

Oh please don’t tell me to just get a new car like my brothers.  I got news for you and them, that is not even the amount that I would pay out in monthly payments for a new car and I would still have to change the oil and do regular maintenance on the vehicle.  Yes I know maintenance would be less but the monthly drain on the wallet really hurts.

So in a way I wish I would have bought the espresso machine I wanted earlier this year when I was foolish and believed that I had the money to spend.  Now I’m sweating bullets to make sure I have enough money for DragonCon hotel/meals/autographs/pictures and of course souvenirs.  I may have to break down and beg the bank for a loan but I hate that idea since I’m currently debt free and I hate having to take out a loan.

Who knows, maybe my walking and buying lottery tickets will let me win lots of money so I can pay for my car repair and stuff at DragonCon…highly unlikely but you never know.

Time to wrap this up because I’ve got to finish reading a book I checked out of the library.  So until I blog again…..May you like what you see reflected in the mirror.

Stepping Forward

I’ve been kind of following along diet way of eat…..NOT and any weight I had loss was now back on my body.  However, I decided that at this moment I’m ready to get back on the weight loss wagon and am watching what I’m eating.

I’ve found some very good recipes listed in keto diets and so I’m taking some from one area and some from another area and making them fit my life style.  Normally I would have given up and I almost did after being on it for only 2 days, but then I actually turned away from temptation.

So Monday I stepped on the scale to start the new way of eating and saw that my weight was 217.4 lbs, which wasn’t too bad considering the last time I weighed myself was 5/24/15, not too long before I went to Dallas Comic Con.  I ate poorly and made very unwise choices but a part of the problem was the fact that it was raining.  Did I mention that it was raining?  Well let me tell you it was really raining.  I was very fortunate that one of my friends was unable to come to the con so she gave me her room which was in the Omni Hotel and it connected directly to the convention center which was where the convention was being held.  Why was this important?  I’ll tell you.

Just in case you were not aware of things, Texas has been getting hit with a lot of rain lately which has been good because Texas was in a drought but so much rain in such a short period of time kind of meant that there would be flooding.  Thankfully I arrived in time to beat out the rain and most of my friends got in before the rain fell.  We had dinner and then later that night we were all awaken by our cell phones going off for a weather emergency which was alerting us to severe thunderstorms and then we got another alert hours later, of course after we all had fallen back asleep that we were under a flash flood warning.  The next morning as I was walking down to get some coffee I saw the Trinity River which in the past has been very low, this time the trees along the banks of the river on had the top branches showing.  Then the next night we again had our phones go off alerting us to the weather warnings and in looking out the window again, the river was still just as high, apparently it had drained off pretty rapidly.  So why tell you about the weather, to show the frustration experienced because we could not get out and go to any other local restaurants, not that there are very many in downtown Dallas by the convention center, so my food selection was extremely limited.  I ate a lot of fries with almost everything and a small side salad was $13 which wasn’t much of a salad at all.  I missed having more salads and vegetables and all of the protein was nice but I actually missed my vegetables and I don’t mean any forms of potatoes.

So I came back and ate what I wanted and did what I wanted until I found my pants were fitting so tight on me by the evening hours that I felt the need to unbutton the top waistband button.  Yeah, talk about feeling embarrassed, believe me that is how I felt.

Then came Monday and on the spur of the moment I decided to just go for it and to start eating better.  So you saw my weight when I stepped on the scale and although it is less than I’ve weighed in recent past, for some reason the pants were tighter.  I discovered something called Keto Diet Tortillas, it is something that I make and although it has only 7.3 carbs, by the time you subtract the fiber, and believe me they have lots of fiber with whole psyllium husks, chia seeds (no not the same ones you put on chia pets), flaxseed meal along with low carb flours and it comes out to 1.5 grams of carbs per tortilla.  They have are the first diet tortillas that are very low in carbs and are actually kind of tasty.  They sort of remind me of a wheat tortilla but they have more fiber and get things moving if you know what I mean.  Now I have something else to eat and I fried a few of the tortillas a little longer and then I had crispy chips…really, really, crispy chips.  Next time I won’t fry them as long but they were still tasty.

Well Monday wasn’t too hard to take and unfortunately I got a little hot, didn’t have A/C turned down low enough and something was trying to resurface, if you know what I mean.  I spent the next couple of hours trying to get back to sleep and finally decided to sleep sitting up which worked.

I got up and then stepped up on the scale, yes I know that I’m not suppose to weigh myself every day and yes I know that I’m easily discouraged so doing this only makes me more susceptible to disappointment but I couldn’t stand it.  I had been mostly good but kind of blew things when I tried sucking on a peppermint to get the nasty taste out of my mouth but that didn’t work, nor did honey and finally had to resort to a sports drink.  So I stepped up on the scale and was surprised to see my weight was now 216.7, giving me a 0.7 pound weight loss.

I was happy to see this but didn’t want to get too excited because that is how I’m always jinxing myself and allowing myself to slip.  But I stuck to my guns and remained eating wisely and I ate the last of my keto tortilla chips with some guacamole again last night.

Thankfully I only struggled a little in the beginning to fall asleep but had a few wake up calls thanks to the water I’ve been drinking.  So I was sure because I really didn’t think I had enough water during the day so I was positive that I was going to gain weight so I reluctantly stepped up on the scale and I was WRONG!!!   My weight had gone down, it was not 215.5 which mean that I had lost weight, 1.2 pounds to be exact.

Now I was happy because I had been feeling only a touch hungry and thus why I had the chips and guacamole late at night.  Then the tortilla chips fiber hit after I had my morning coffee and I knew that there would be a weight gain and I just wanted to see what it would be, so I stepped on the scale, closed my eyes and there it was, 214.4.  I had lost even more weight.  I weighed in at 0900hrs the first time today and then weighed in again at 1130hrs which was when I got the 214.4 pound reading.

This means just since Monday I’ve lost 3 whole pounds.  That is incredible.  I know that this might just be because a slight increase in my drinking of water but I would like to think that the extra fiber I’m taking in is helping some.  I’m going to be making some of the Primal Girl’s Wonder bread and will then take my reading as to net carbs and see how that turns out.

Look, I know that it is bad to eat any type of bread but I love bread, I like taste and the feeling of biting into something other than a lettuce leaf to hold my tuna salad or my chicken salad.  So rather than upset myself I’ll just allow for these type of bread products to happen and focus on net carbs, which means increasing my fiber…yeah and no I don’t mean by taking Metamucil, I’d rather get it in my foods.

So I’m finally taking a step forward instead of backwards.  Here’s hoping I don’t falter in the next few days.


Oh I can also be proud of myself, there was cake and lots of food at a Lieutenant’s retirement party but I passed on the cake and all of the beans/rice/regular tortillas and chicken.  Then today a group grilled burgers and hot dogs for us and I could have probably had the hot dog or the burger without the bun but I figured I would leave it for the guys working in the field.  Besides I brought something else to eat and I will end up eating that.  Oh and I also passed right by the doughnuts brought in, from my favorite Doughnut shop, Shipley’s Doughnuts.

I have resisted them all and now to attack my salad and the other part of my dinner.  Hope to write to you next time about something positive again.

Big Step Backwards

Wow, did I ever take a big step backwards, my weight sky rocketed.  Yeah I’ll get the bad news over with right away.  My weight had sky rocketed to 220 pounds, at least that was what it said this morning as it screamed out for mercy and told me only one person at a time was allowed on the scale.

I think a part of my problem is that I was kind of bored with what I was eating that was allowed on the diet plan so I decided to just eat and enjoy things.  Well I went back up to my beginning weight and then I lost a pound or two, basically my weight was fluctuating so I didn’t really think too much about it as I headed for my first geek con of the year.  Boy was that a mistake….oh, not the con but my ignoring what I eat.

Now for any of you who have ever attended any convention, no matter if it is geek or work related, the food selection is not always the best.  Well as a matter of fact it really sucked this year, really sucked!!

The con was in Dallas and in the Dallas Convention Center and the venue was great as were the guests; the crowds weren’t too bad except when it came to lining up for autographs and pictures.  Why were they not good, well everyone was trying to do the same thing at the same time, but still it was a good con…EXCEPT for the food.

It was important to know about the location because as many of you probably heard over the news, Dallas/Ft. Worth and many other places in Texas were receiving large amounts of rain and so flooding was happening.  This kind of limited how far out you wanted to venture from the hotel and from the convention center.  Oh there were lots of food vendors but there was one thing that was prevalent in almost all of the food and that was Chipotle

I used to eat hot stuff long ago but thanks to a real mess I went through to get a divorce, I kind of developed some digestion problems and from then on any type of overly spicy or spicy hot, hell I sometimes have problems with Mild Pace Picante Sauce.  Now that makes me some kind of wimp because I used to love the hot and the medium, now I struggle with mild.  So do you see the theme here?  I can’t take hot or spicy and so my convention in Dallas became kind of a pain.

First night in we go down to the restaurant in the Omni in downtown Dallas and I ordered a steak.  I got green beans which were okay but had an odd taste to them.  Because of wet conditions we had lunch the next day back at the hotel and decided to have fish and chips and asked for tartar sauce with it.  It was a chipotle tartar sauce, so we sent it back (the people I was eating with also can not handle hot spicy foods) and they came back with the same stuff only it had more mayo in it so we send it back a second time and told our waiter again we want plain tartar sauce or we’ll just use mayo.  Finally the third time was the charm.

Well that is how things went the rest of the trip, everywhere at the hotel they had chipotle this and chipotle that, for food.  At the convention center it wasn’t much better.  I tried to get a salad but all they had was chipotle dressing, the wraps had chipotle mayo, even the sandwiches had chipotle mayo.  The only things that didn’t have chipotle on it were the sugar coated pecans/almonds, popcorn, the drinks, fudge and pizza.  So we had a very limited selection and since it was raining venturing out in the rain was not exactly what I wanted to do.

So imagine my shock when I ordered a salad and it cost $13 and that is without any meat in the salad.  Yes I understand that the name of the place was Texas Spice but I got news for them, chipotle is not a Texas a spice.  Ordering food and stressing that we did not want any spices on our food became rather interesting.  So about the only vegetable I got was as a side dish and even then they were coated with spices, no a good situation.  I would have gone for the buffet but even the meat dishes there had spices, but then again I could have had just a salad as well as macaroni and cheese.  But after ordering it on the last night, it was horrible.  They didn’t bother to mix the cheese thorough with the pasta, so let’s just say that I won’t be ordering that next year.

So I come back and although I should have been re-reading my information about being primal but decided that I was going to try to keep my carb count below 50, so basically putting my body into ketosis to give it a jump start.  At least that is the plan but I don’t know if I will be able to do it.  I’ve been reading all sorts of articles so I can learn what to expect and how to keep myself in good condition when I start really cutting back on my carb intake.

About this time you’re probably wondering why the big push.  Well at the end of May it was day 56 and I had hoped to be 10 pounds lighter but instead I’m heavier than when I started.  I really do want my espresso machine but I have to get to 185 by the time DragonCon comes along.

Maybe this is a good sign.  The rain has finally let up a bit here in Texas, yes that is where I live, so there is a chance that I can get out and ride my trike.  I’m not planning on riding any huge distances because I have a long way to drive before I get to the spot where I need to ride.  Yes I could ride my usual routes in the city but I hate riding in the city because the drivers are horrible.  I like being out on the open road, yes I know that it is dangerous and that the drivers are going faster on those roads than in the city streets but they seem more observant.  Maybe because of all of my flashing lights and streamers or maybe it is because they can’t figure out what I am so they are careful when they pass by me.  In the city they are very reckless with their driving because they are preoccupied with everything else except driving and focusing on the roadway.

Okay so I’ve stepped off my soap box and I’ve put in my 2 cents worth of opinion.

I’ve got a few more preparations to make before I get very serious about my diet and I’m quickly bringing things back in line to correct eating because my stomach can’t handle things any more and besides that my work pants are getting too tight….ouch!!

Besides if I lose that weight then I might treat myself and don a costume for DragonCon….now that would be fun.


So I blew up like a huge balloon and decided to get organize so I can start eating right.  A good thing is that the rain is not going to be as heavy as it has been for the last month so I can get out and ride my trike and so I can grill some of my food and it gets me outside for wonderful Vitamin K.