What am I going to do?

Exactly what I’m wondering, what am I going to do?  So you’re asking what I’m talking about, well my trip to Europe.  I’ve got 67 days to go and I’m no closer to losing weight than I was before I even bought my tickets.

So I met a co-worker who had retired and he looked great.  He had lost according to him, 42 pounds and he had been on a weight loss program since Mid December and it was the middle of February when I saw him.  He talked about the plan and said how wonderful it was and then said I should check with my employer because they pay for us to participate in a weight plan if we are morbidly obese.  Thankfully I’m not morbidly just moderately obese.

I’ve lost weight and I’ve gained it plus a bit more back, so now I’m wondering what in the heck am I going to do.  I was trying Slimvance pills but ran into a problem because I couldn’t remember to take the pill 30 minutes before eating.  Now if it was take a pill after I ate then it might be better but odds are against me even remembering what to do after I eat.

Now it would be great if I could just take time off from work and do nothing but focus on my diet and exercise but since I’m sure like all of you, I don’t have the luxury of just focusing on dieting, life keeps on interrupting what I’m doing.  Not having to deal with life’s problems would also decrease my stress.  Yes I carry a lot of stress with me mainly from my jobs and it tends to stay with me especially since I don’t exercise after work.

I like exercising after work but since I get off at 11p.m. (2300hrs) and by the time I drive to my gym, change clothes and get ready for my workout which only consist of 30 minutes on stationary recumbent bike and maybe lifting a few weights for my upper arm strength, then after stretching (I’ve learned to really do a good stretching routine after working out) it is usually 12:30-12:45 a.m. then I have to drive home.  By the time I get home and relax and catch up on mail and other things then shower, it is usually 3 or 4 in the morning.  Very hard to decelerate and shut down for sleep so usually I’m still up at 5 or 6 in the morning.  Which means I sleep in and that isn’t the best thing to do because I have errands to run.

So what am I going to do because I want to be at least below 200 pounds before I leave for Europe.  I won’t even talk about the stress I’m having to worry about with making arrangements for my nightly stays, way too much stress to carry around with me.  Sometimes I really miss living by myself, the only thing I was responsible for besides paying my bills, was feeding and walking my dogs.  Unfortunately my dogs are gone I have a hard time explaining that I need some time away from the house and everyone.  I miss living by myself.

Okay done feeling sorry for myself.  Now it is time for me to get busy and think of what I’m going to do because as of tomorrow, it will be 67 days until I leave for UK and start my European vacation.  At least then I will get a chance to be by myself.  I only managed to do it by saying it was an early birthday gift for myself since I’m having to pay for it all.  But I think I will enjoy myself.  I only have a partial itinerary for what I want to do.

Okay so now since we’re here talking about my stumbling weight diary, maybe I should get serious about what I’m going to do to lose a little bit of weight.  I’m also hoping to lose weight like I did when I last went to Europe.  I lost 20 pounds in 17 days mainly because I did a lot of walking.

I plan to be back tomorrow blogging about what I will come up with tonight to get me down to my first goal weight in 67 days.  So pardon me for cutting this short but I’ve got some research to do and I hope to be back tomorrow.