P D E – Potato Restart

So when I last wrote, it was day 41 and I had lost a total of 25 pounds.  That was a wonderful day although there were so many things going crazy.  I had to prepare a few things for the upcoming Thanksgiving dinner as well as try to figure out when and where to cook everything as well as get the meat for the meals.

Normally it is just me and my mother of Thanksgiving day and then I rush off to work but not this year.  This year because one of my brothers was going to South Africa to visit his daughters during the Christmas holidays, the girls are currently working and living in that part of the world.  Anyways, that brother decided that he wanted to spend Thanksgiving with us because they wouldn’t be here for Christmas so then the other brother who lives in another part of the state decided that he would join us for Thanksgiving dinner which is really a lunch.

The brother who is going to be out of country is a vegetarian and the only one of us who is that way so we have to fix several things just for him which of course my mother volunteered to cook.  I wasn’t sure if I was going to make any cake balls until one of the nieces or nephews asked what flavors I was going to make.  Yikes!!!   This means I had to make some for the family and whatever is left over will go to the station for the crew to eat.

I officially fell off the potato wagon on Saturday the 19th which was day 42 of my Potato Diet Experiment.  So I started baking my cakes, chocolate cake and orange cake to make my cake balls.  The first was chocolate fudge cake with peanut butter frosting filling coated in chocolate coating shell and the last was orange cake with vanilla frosting center coated in vanilla coating shell.  The cake balls are basically easy to make but they are very time consuming to make.  Unfortunately not all of this can be done by touch and feel, I have to taste the mixture to make sure everything is at the right consistency.  Let’s just say that a few cake balls made it into my mouth and this was bad.

So I at least ate some potatoes during the weekend and week of Thanksgiving but not enough and we quickly ran out of room in the fridge to keep them so the potatoes were not prominent in my diet.  I did try to control some of the foods that I ate but obviously not enough of what I should have eaten.

Let’s just say that I ate what I wanted but tried to slightly control myself … that is until Thanksgiving.  I had pies, sweet potato casserole, green bean casserole, crescent rolls, cranberry jelly, ham, turkey and probably some other but I’ve forgotten.  On Thanksgiving day when I ate with the family I tried to be good by not eating much but was starving at work especially since one of the country club chefs cooked seafood paella which I had to sample.  But I took some of everything else I had for lunch for dinner that night.

I had more of the same stuff on Friday and Friday night along with pizza, then Saturday I had the same stuff again for both lunch and dinner, as well as having the combo of food once more for lunch and dinner on Sunday.

There is one thing I can say about eating foods other than potatoes…I need to buy stock in Tums and Alka-Seltzer because I was swallowing those like they were going out of style.  I would be paying myself for using those products but I had no one to blame but myself.  It is hard for me to think because my thinking process went into a slump and I actually had a hard time focusing on things probably also because I was having problems sleeping.

Wrapping up my Thanksgiving experience is kind of easy, I ate wrong and ate too much of the wrong things and couldn’t get any decent sleep.

So here I am on Day 51 from my original start date getting back on the wagon of weight loss.  I stepped up on the scale and my weight was 201.3 pounds.  This means that I gained 6.3 pounds for the 9 days that I was off of the diet.  Yeah that is a lot of weight to gain but the reality is that normally I wouldn’t be eating half of what was being served.  Now I’m going to have to use my Food Saver and see about putting a lot of the left overs in those sealed bags so it will be handing for my brother and maybe for us to have again come out Christmas dinner time.  Which we are having early this year because that is when one brother can come into town.

There are so many times that I really, really miss living out of state from my family.  One of the reason is the fact that it is too hard for me to get off because the last few jobs I’ve had are jobs where I’m considered essential personnel and I must be at work no matter the weather or the holiday.  Hey, it’s not bad because I get paid like OT pay for working the holidays and I get to save the holiday for another time.

Maybe I can talk my mother into going to one of my brother’s place for Thanksgiving and/or Christmas.  I miss not being able to skip it because of work.  Now don’t get me wrong, I love my family and really enjoy our time together but everyone gathering at my place which is a very small house and you try putting 22 people in there and see how comfortable you are….not very.  Even my mother is tired of everyone coming by so she wants to volunteer to serve Thanksgiving dinner at one of the big free turkey dinner places next year.  That certainly will get us out of cooking and keep down the left overs.

But enough of that nonsense.  Today is Day 51 of the big PDE or Restart Day 1.

One thing that I’ve been very happy with is that up until this last week or so, I’ve been under 200 pounds.  It was a bit of relief in my mind.  I actually thought that maybe by this spring I might go to a nearby city and do a zip line ride and I could even do it sooner because most of the time they have a 200 pound limit in order to get on the ride.  I’m only 1.3 pounds away from that so even though I won’t be doing that any time soon, my goal is to get to 200 pounds.  Then I would love to be at 190 pounds by the end of the year.  I think that is a realistic goal but something I will need to focus on.

I also thought that I would consider doing some light walking around the neighborhood or maybe even get out my trike and ride in an area where there aren’t a lot of hills.  Now that part about finding a place to ride without a lot of hills will be a bit of a challenge because there are hills everywhere in my city which is normally not to much of a problem but I don’t want to start exerting too much energy because then that will throw off my losing weight.  So light walking or riding will be my goal.

So I’m back to eating potatoes only this time I’m adding salt and I noticed that when I started adding picante sauce to my meals, I started getting a lot of gas which I think is because of the picante sauce which has tomatoes, uncooked onions and peppers in them.  All three of those items all give me gas, so maybe I’ll just keep to my potatoes and a touch of salt.  I’ve got until the 17th of next month to lose as much as possible because when the family comes in I know I will have another set back so I want to be prepared.

I hope this is the great start to another successful weight loss time.


P D E – Day 18

Yes I know, you’re wondering what the heck happened to day 17, well I’m just going to incorporate it into this day’s ranting.  Guess I should start out by saying I stepped on the scale and was a little sad but only a little.  I still lost weight, only it was 0.8 pounds, which isn’t much but it is a loss.  So today on day 18 I stepped up on the scale and the weight loss was even less, it was only 0.4 pounds lost.

So it appears that when I took my big cheat day back on day 6, it snapped my lucky losing streak and my weight loss has never been as good since that time.  If only I would have known, then I wouldn’t have taken that cheat day but it did show me something, it showed me that if I could have ever made bad choices for food, I made it on that day.

Today after getting color renewed in my hair, I tried my cold brew coffee and I had used espresso coffee like someone had suggested, but I should have ignored them and followed my own lead by using regular coffee.  It was really strong and since I’m still drinking my coffee black, it was rough on the system and I only ended up drinking 1/4 cup of it.  So I made my regular coffee but I was so busy trying to get things set up for my dinner at work that my coffee had grown cold.

Of course I could have nuked it to warm it up but I live in an old house and none of the wiring has been redone so microwave plus coffee maker plus my airfryer and my television are all on the same circuit which would have tripped the breaker and it takes forever to get things up and running so I just drank my cool cup of regular coffee.

Yesterday I decided to experiment and create some steak fries in my airfryer because it doesn’t use any oil.  It took a little bit longer to cook them and then I had a problem with some of the thicker fries not being fully cooked and since I cut them, I’m blaming me for cutting them too thick on some of the fries.

Now today, I got out my madoline slicer and put the french fries blades on and after I finally remembered how to use the device and so I made quick work of the two potatoes I had washed.  Had to put the waiting french fries in cold water while I cooked some of the fries in the airfryer.  So you’re probably wondering why in the heck was I doing this?

Yesterday we ate some of the thinner french fries that I airfried and they were crunchy,… of course they needed salt but I had them without salt.  So today once I cooked them, the fries came out much crunchier so I took a bag of french fries with me, made some boiled potatoes and made some mashed potatoes.  So I’m set for dinner tonight, day 18 because on day 17 I didn’t take much for dinner.

Big drum roll please…so I took my boiled potatoes and since they had been in the fridge here at work, I only warmed them so they were room temperature and I found that they are not too bad to eat and that I can eat room temp boiled potatoes.

Now you’re probably wondering why this is important enough for me to write about, it is because the odds are not in my favor to be 200 pounds by tomorrow morning, so after talking with my hair stylist, she convinced me that I should stick to my potatoes and to prepare the potatoes just before I leave for the convention and then carry them in my bag while at the convention so if I get hungry I can eat a potato rather than having bad pizza, horrible convention hot dogs/hamburgers, stale chip nachos or overpriced water and sodas.  Instead I plan on bringing a bag of boiled potatoes and carrying in a collapsible water bottle so it can be refilled as many times as possible at water fountain.

You know, today is a really crappy day at work because all I have had are whiners and people who heaven knows how they even reached adulthood because they are all acting like crying babies.  As of this writing I only have 3 1/2 hours until I get off and can escape to my convention the next day.  Come on 11pm, you can’t get her quick enough.

Well I’m out of here before I pull my hair out after talking with people who should not have been allowed to have children because they never matured into adulthood.  Hey I understanding being young at heart but when they seem to digress back to teenage years, then I give up.  Thank goodness it is my Friday and on the real Friday I’ll be at the Con.

So I’m gone and time to do a stroll in the station to try and relax.



P D E – Days 13, 14 & 15

Yeah, I kind of forgot what I was doing this weekend and forgot to enter what happened and so I’m kind of making up for it now.


Day 13

So let me go ahead and get started about Saturday which was the 13th day of PDE.  So I got on the scale and was a little bit happier to see that my weight had gone down by 1.2 pounds, putting me at 205.2 pounds.  It may not seem like much but I figure I got one in the negative column again for the day.

I then took my blood pressure a couple of times and was sad to see that it was a little high but on the plus side, my pulse was nice and low, 68.  I was able to take one of my yellow blood pressure pills when I noticed that I had very few left and then I read that I would need to go in and see the doctor in order to get it renewed.  Doesn’t seem like much…right.

Actually I’m opposed to going and seeing the lady because I had told her that I didn’t want to do a particular procedure because Colonoscopies are not for me and there has not been any of that type of trouble in my family medical history.  So after she sent me in to do a second blood test, testing my iron level again and to see if I’m Greek (believe me when I say I’m not Greek nor do I look anything close to resembling Greeks).  Then she said she wanted to do an upper GI check as to why I had blood loss and because I told her for months I had consistent upset stomach and was eating TUMS like they were candy.  So I got to the specialist she sent me to and guess what….she had me going for a colonoscopy, so I had to make a co-payment to see someone whom I told that I was not going to have it done because that was not what the doctor wanted.  She showed me the order so I thanked her for her time and got off the examination table and seriously resisted telling her what she could do with my co-pay I had to make just to tell her that it wasn’t going to happen.

Okay but I really digressed there…sorry.  Any who, I’m going to take the strong dosage of my old BP medication and only take it every other day until my BP goes down or until I can get in to see a new doctor who will at least listen to me.

So now it is Saturday and I ended up taking my mother shopping and it ended up taking us longer than I expected so my other plans of prepping for the arrival of my Kona coffee went by the way side.  Oh in case I forgot to mention it, I had told you that I was running out of Kona coffee Keurig cups and not the blend stuff, so last week I ordered Kona coffee from Hawaii from a legitimate Kona coffee brewer but it was not due to arrive until Monday the 24th.  So now I realize I need to get the grind down right for the beans, yes I ordered beans for freshness, and then it was time to experiment with the amount to go in the paper filter/cup for the Keurig, but it was too late to be drinking coffee.

I wanted something different so I tried my hand again at the potato tortillas and I was evil by having a little bit of mild picante sauce with it for dinner.  It was a different change in pace and I was thankful for the change.  So I called it a night.


Day 14

So getting right to it, I stepped up on the scale and guess what…..  The Other Shoe hit the floor.  I had gained 0.2 pounds.  Now this might not have seemed like much but considering how hard it has been for me to lose any weight this week, I was very disappointed in myself.

Then another thing occurred.  You remember me talking about a weird slimy type of feeling in my mouth, well I had it again and then I realized it was from the potato tortillas because I had used potato starch to make the tortillas.  So no more of those things for the sake of my mouth and because it is my gateway for me eating things other than potatoes.

On a much bright note…well sort of brighter.  My BP was down quite a bit, 117.85 and my pulse was still low, 72.  That is about the best thing I could say about the day.

I started working on getting the grind right on my coffee bean and I thought I had it but no, I didn’t.  I had to grind it down a little bit finer than I expected which allows for the coffee to flow easier through the coffee.  I tried it and not only was the taste terrible but it was weak.  So I had to redo the grind and the amount packed into the K-Cup container.

But did I mention that on this morning I had the last of my Kona coffee K-Cup and I wanted to savor it but it tasted good and I drank it way too fast.  I wanted another cup of coffee and almost felt like crying because I know that UPS doesn’t deliver to my house until late in the evening so I know that on Monday morning I will have to drink the stuff I’ve been practicing on.  Yuck!  However, there is a big need for caffeine and tea just doesn’t do it for me.

Thankfully the slimy feeling ended quickly and my mouth felt normal.  So I definitely know what I should or rather what I shouldn’t have which are potato tortillas.

My mother always claims that she gets a good cleaning (if you know what I mean) when she eats sweet potatoes so she suggested I have one so I made a couple, having one for late lunch and the other for dinner along with a regular potato.  Unfortunately or maybe in this case, good thing, the sweet potato was too much so I only ate half of it and put the other half away.

When reading Penn’s book he said he ate sweet potatoes but Steele said not to eat the sweet potato when on the potato diet.  So I guess we’ll see tomorrow what happens.  Time to crash people.


Day 15

Why do my friends always think it is okay to text me in the early morning hours?  At least this time it was 7 in the morning instead of 4 in the morning.  I told her I would talk later but she kept on texting and finally after the fifth text message I wrote to her and asked her to please stop because I was asleep.  So she sends two more, the first apologizing for waking me and the second was to tell me to go back to sleep.

Luckily I managed to fall asleep for the last 1 1/2 hours before my massage appointment.  I did a bad thing, I got up and weighed myself, not waiting for the right time to weigh-in and was shocked when I saw that I had gained 0.8 pounds.  I was in shock but it is 2 1/2 hours before I was supposed to weigh and so guess what….I swore off of sweet potatoes.

So I finish my appointment and all of the moving of my muscles actually hurt a bit today and I’m hoping because I’m losing some of the fat that I had for extra cushioning.  He also worked on my knee which has been hurting and after the appointment is the best my knee has been feeling in a while.

Okay time to step up on the scale, knowing I will be very heavy, waiting for the shoe to drop.  Well it dropped but in a good way.  I lost 0.2 pounds which was how much I had gained eating the potato tortillas.  I’m still wanting to be at 200 pounds by Friday morning which is when I got to my convention but after how I struggled last week I’m beginning to wonder if that is every going to happen.  Oh please, oh please come on weight loss.

I’m going to do my best to keep losing the weight so I’m staying strict with plain black coffee, especially since my coffee just arrived today.  I’m going with plain potatoes: russet, Yukon, purple, red potatoes all without any thing on them…plain.

I’m sure I’ll never have such a rapid weight loss like I did on the first 5 days of the PDE and that is probably due to the fact that all of the weight lost was just water weight.  Although 13 pounds is a lot of water weight to lose, it appears to be the case.

So if I can at least lose 0.5 pounds a day that would be great but right now I’m 80 pounds over weight of my true desired weight.  But on a more practical side I’m only 75 pounds overweight of my secondary goal weight.  What the heck I’ll keep on shooting for the big loss.

I’m about to take an early exit from work and will have my dinner at home.  Guess what I’m having for dinner?????   POTATOES !!!!!

Guess since it early enough I’ll have some Kona coffee too.

Stepping Forward

I’ve been kind of following along diet way of eat…..NOT and any weight I had loss was now back on my body.  However, I decided that at this moment I’m ready to get back on the weight loss wagon and am watching what I’m eating.

I’ve found some very good recipes listed in keto diets and so I’m taking some from one area and some from another area and making them fit my life style.  Normally I would have given up and I almost did after being on it for only 2 days, but then I actually turned away from temptation.

So Monday I stepped on the scale to start the new way of eating and saw that my weight was 217.4 lbs, which wasn’t too bad considering the last time I weighed myself was 5/24/15, not too long before I went to Dallas Comic Con.  I ate poorly and made very unwise choices but a part of the problem was the fact that it was raining.  Did I mention that it was raining?  Well let me tell you it was really raining.  I was very fortunate that one of my friends was unable to come to the con so she gave me her room which was in the Omni Hotel and it connected directly to the convention center which was where the convention was being held.  Why was this important?  I’ll tell you.

Just in case you were not aware of things, Texas has been getting hit with a lot of rain lately which has been good because Texas was in a drought but so much rain in such a short period of time kind of meant that there would be flooding.  Thankfully I arrived in time to beat out the rain and most of my friends got in before the rain fell.  We had dinner and then later that night we were all awaken by our cell phones going off for a weather emergency which was alerting us to severe thunderstorms and then we got another alert hours later, of course after we all had fallen back asleep that we were under a flash flood warning.  The next morning as I was walking down to get some coffee I saw the Trinity River which in the past has been very low, this time the trees along the banks of the river on had the top branches showing.  Then the next night we again had our phones go off alerting us to the weather warnings and in looking out the window again, the river was still just as high, apparently it had drained off pretty rapidly.  So why tell you about the weather, to show the frustration experienced because we could not get out and go to any other local restaurants, not that there are very many in downtown Dallas by the convention center, so my food selection was extremely limited.  I ate a lot of fries with almost everything and a small side salad was $13 which wasn’t much of a salad at all.  I missed having more salads and vegetables and all of the protein was nice but I actually missed my vegetables and I don’t mean any forms of potatoes.

So I came back and ate what I wanted and did what I wanted until I found my pants were fitting so tight on me by the evening hours that I felt the need to unbutton the top waistband button.  Yeah, talk about feeling embarrassed, believe me that is how I felt.

Then came Monday and on the spur of the moment I decided to just go for it and to start eating better.  So you saw my weight when I stepped on the scale and although it is less than I’ve weighed in recent past, for some reason the pants were tighter.  I discovered something called Keto Diet Tortillas, it is something that I make and although it has only 7.3 carbs, by the time you subtract the fiber, and believe me they have lots of fiber with whole psyllium husks, chia seeds (no not the same ones you put on chia pets), flaxseed meal along with low carb flours and it comes out to 1.5 grams of carbs per tortilla.  They have are the first diet tortillas that are very low in carbs and are actually kind of tasty.  They sort of remind me of a wheat tortilla but they have more fiber and get things moving if you know what I mean.  Now I have something else to eat and I fried a few of the tortillas a little longer and then I had crispy chips…really, really, crispy chips.  Next time I won’t fry them as long but they were still tasty.

Well Monday wasn’t too hard to take and unfortunately I got a little hot, didn’t have A/C turned down low enough and something was trying to resurface, if you know what I mean.  I spent the next couple of hours trying to get back to sleep and finally decided to sleep sitting up which worked.

I got up and then stepped up on the scale, yes I know that I’m not suppose to weigh myself every day and yes I know that I’m easily discouraged so doing this only makes me more susceptible to disappointment but I couldn’t stand it.  I had been mostly good but kind of blew things when I tried sucking on a peppermint to get the nasty taste out of my mouth but that didn’t work, nor did honey and finally had to resort to a sports drink.  So I stepped up on the scale and was surprised to see my weight was now 216.7, giving me a 0.7 pound weight loss.

I was happy to see this but didn’t want to get too excited because that is how I’m always jinxing myself and allowing myself to slip.  But I stuck to my guns and remained eating wisely and I ate the last of my keto tortilla chips with some guacamole again last night.

Thankfully I only struggled a little in the beginning to fall asleep but had a few wake up calls thanks to the water I’ve been drinking.  So I was sure because I really didn’t think I had enough water during the day so I was positive that I was going to gain weight so I reluctantly stepped up on the scale and I was WRONG!!!   My weight had gone down, it was not 215.5 which mean that I had lost weight, 1.2 pounds to be exact.

Now I was happy because I had been feeling only a touch hungry and thus why I had the chips and guacamole late at night.  Then the tortilla chips fiber hit after I had my morning coffee and I knew that there would be a weight gain and I just wanted to see what it would be, so I stepped on the scale, closed my eyes and there it was, 214.4.  I had lost even more weight.  I weighed in at 0900hrs the first time today and then weighed in again at 1130hrs which was when I got the 214.4 pound reading.

This means just since Monday I’ve lost 3 whole pounds.  That is incredible.  I know that this might just be because a slight increase in my drinking of water but I would like to think that the extra fiber I’m taking in is helping some.  I’m going to be making some of the Primal Girl’s Wonder bread and will then take my reading as to net carbs and see how that turns out.

Look, I know that it is bad to eat any type of bread but I love bread, I like taste and the feeling of biting into something other than a lettuce leaf to hold my tuna salad or my chicken salad.  So rather than upset myself I’ll just allow for these type of bread products to happen and focus on net carbs, which means increasing my fiber…yeah and no I don’t mean by taking Metamucil, I’d rather get it in my foods.

So I’m finally taking a step forward instead of backwards.  Here’s hoping I don’t falter in the next few days.


Oh I can also be proud of myself, there was cake and lots of food at a Lieutenant’s retirement party but I passed on the cake and all of the beans/rice/regular tortillas and chicken.  Then today a group grilled burgers and hot dogs for us and I could have probably had the hot dog or the burger without the bun but I figured I would leave it for the guys working in the field.  Besides I brought something else to eat and I will end up eating that.  Oh and I also passed right by the doughnuts brought in, from my favorite Doughnut shop, Shipley’s Doughnuts.

I have resisted them all and now to attack my salad and the other part of my dinner.  Hope to write to you next time about something positive again.

Bump In The Road – Day 8

Well here I am starting the second week of my Personal Bet and guess what, not doing so great.  But to be honest with myself and you, I gained 0.2 pounds.  Now there is a very good reason for this, I was not eating primal on Friday/Saturday/Sunday and thus this is why my weight reflected this weight gain.  Although it is not much I’m still a touch disappointed in myself.  I can come up with all sorts of excuses as to why the gain, I ate wrong, I didn’t exercise and I had a couple of drinks to make me sleep on each of these nights.

Yes I have been having problems going to sleep at night and usually it is about 4 or 5 in the morning before sleep finally begins to hit me and then I get up about 4 hours later so I’m exhausted the whole day long.  I kept on hoping that my lack of sleep would catch up with me at night so I could go to sleep early and I usually would start out that way but then would wake up about 30 minutes into my sleep and once I’m finished with my business I can’t go back to sleep.

I discovered that despite the temperature cooling down with the rain that we have been having lately, it is still too hot in my bedroom and I was trying to conserve energy by not running my window A/C unit but that is an obvious flop.  I know that being hot is a part of the reason for me not sleeping very well and I proved it last night but turning on my A/C unit and after about 30 minutes I was able to go to sleep.  Now that I know this is a part of the trick then I will have to remember to turn on the A/C unit when I get ready to go to bed so that I can sleep.

As for eating, well I just got out of the habit of eating Primal, yes I knew better but it was tasty at the times when I jumped ship.

Now I know that by eating primal you do not need to rely on the exercise as a way to lose weight but it sure does help.  Well because I wasn’t eating correctly and having bread almost every day, it is no wonder that I gained back all of the weight that I had lost earlier in the week.  So moral of my story is to abandon the bread and figure out a better way to have something for lunch other than just making a sandwich.  See that was my downfall.  I guess I could have one if I was walking 10 miles a day but since I have to do other things such as work for a living my guess is walking will not work off the sandwich so I will have to slap my hands when it comes to making a sandwich.  That was mostly where I went wrong during the week and also on the weekend because I had sandwiches for lunch and dinner and then had a hamburger on a hamburger bun, which was a big no-no.

I would have loved to have exercised but the weather was not my friend, but now that I think about it…actually the weatherman/weatherwoman were not my friend.  They kept on predicting rain and thunderstorms happening and the weather in the morning would reflect this but then it would clear up in the afternoon just as I’m going to work.  So then I would plan to go riding the next morning when it would rain at about 2 in the morning and would rain enough to leave large puddles in the street and the ground pretty soaked.  I know that I should not be looking the gift horse in the mouth considering we are still in a basic drought situation but it sure is a bummer.  I need the roads to be a little bit dryer when riding and I really prefer not to ride during a thunderstorm.  Right now I’m driving for about 2 hours before I reach the city where I will be starting my rides and they have actually been getting the thunderstorms, something about them being in the hill country and more storms in that area.  I don’t know, I just want to ride.    Oh and in case you can’t tell, I’m hooked on riding on the open road, too bad I’m not rich so I could focus on only eating primal and exercising, then the weight would sure come off quickly.  Oh well.

Riding my trike is something that really relaxes me and I’m of course quite anxious to get back out and ride some more on the open road which is what I’ve been doing when I do my rides.  Sure there is a lot of traffic but because I’m not on city streets there is less traffic, even on the few times that I ride on the access roads of the Interstate Highway.  Heck even some of those roads are far enough away from the Interstate that I feel like I’m out in the country and considering the cities that I ride through are small cities.  Okay so maybe not so small but if you compare them to the larger urban sprawl where I usually ride you can understand the difference.  I mean it too almost 25 miles to ride from where I live to outside of the city limits and I ended up on the other side of one of the small neighboring cities.

I know that I can walk but I find that walking is boring because it is around the neighborhood and I guess I’m just sick of the neighborhood because it is the same almost all of the time.  Besides I like riding my trike because it is actually relaxing except when riding in the city streets where the majority of the people are relatively considerate, the other part of the people (maybe 45 percent) are real jerks and do their best to curse, yell, and almost hit me as I ride in the roadway.  Yes bicyclist/tricyclist have a right to ride in the roadway and most cities prohibit us from riding on the sidewalk stating that it is for pedestrians.  So wouldn’t you know, in looking ahead for the weather this week, it is predicted to rain again…this makes 3 weekends in a row.  Drats, I missed getting out on the weekend.

Oh well so much for getting out, now I just have to try and figure out how to be more dedicated to eating correctly and hope the best for exercise.

So this is a minor set back and I plan to make corrections to my eating

Start of Personal Bet

Okay so here I go, this morning I got on the scale and knew I would be heavier than the 213.1 I was weighing on 3/24/15 but imagine my shock when 12 days later I see that I’ve gained 5 pounds, putting my weight at 218.1 pounds.  Wow, I was really, really shocked but in reality I knew I was gaining weight because my pants were not fitting as loose as they had been on the 24th.  But I had company return from out of country and they wanted to eat and for some reason my resolve went zip out the window.  So I ate and then last week we had people bringing sweets into the office and I didn’t resist and then I celebrated my mother’s birthday and we had chocolate bunnies (it was Easter Sunday), chocolate birthday cake and chocolate ice cream….oh yeah and peanut butter chocolate eggs.  What can I say, chocolate is the hardest thing for me to resist.

So if I continue to follow my goal, which to some of you may seem minor but considering my track record it will not be an easy thing for me to continue for 164 days or in this case now, 163 days.  Yes I know it is a lot of time between now and then but I have to maintain the weight loss which has always been a hard thing for me to do.  Sure I can lose the weight but I usually quickly slip up and start eating regular stuff which are usually carb heavy meals and yep, on comes the weight.  So the big test will be keeping it off, so if I lose my desired 30 pounds I have to maintain it.  I really, really want that espresso maker.  Besides if I get the machine it is not as if I’ll be going off of being Primal, I use good things for my espresso/lattes.

Okay so let’s recap…I ate like a pig and gained weight lots of weight, 5 pounds in 12 days which is way too much.

So here I am on Day 1 of my PB (personal bet) and having weigh-in, but I’ve yet to take my measurements which is something I will end up doing tonight and will just log that in my personal journal so I can see if I’m even coming close to making a difference.

Let’s see, I started out the morning with 4 strips of bacon (yum) and a cup of tea.  Lunch was brisket and mashed potatoes.  Dinner was a lot more brisket (served myself too much but still I ate it all), masked potatoes and green beans.  Oh yeah and my snack was a peanut butter Easter egg.  I know I’m pretty darn close to hitting 100 grams of carbs so I’ll just be more careful tomorrow and buckle down a little bit more on what I’m eating.

Don’t know if this counts any but I got up and walked a mile which is four times around the outer edge of our parking lot at the station which I did shortly after eating.  As I said earlier, I ate too much and was suffering so that was why I went walking.  Not happy with my eating habits on the first day but I just want to get most of the food left over for Easter out of the way, meaning the mashed potatoes.

I still need to go home and take a selfie showing my rolls of fat and hope that by the end of August I will be a little bit happier with how I look.  So this is it for the night, I’ve actually got to get back to work but at least I get to go home early tonight.  Maybe if I play my cards right, I can end up getting up early enough to take a quick spin around the area on my trike.  That will be something I can look forward to doing tomorrow.

Instead of posting a picture of what I used to look like, maybe I will post a picture of the espresso machine I want so I will have a constant reminder of why I need to remain focused on my way of living.    With that being said, I’m outta here and hope that you have a good night/morning/afternoon or whatever time of day it is when you read this.

163 days to go.

Personal Bet

Okay I know that I’ve been away from blogging and my apologies for those who were wondering if I fell off the face of the Earth or what.  Nope, the laws of gravity are still working and I’m still here.

While I was on my own for two weeks, I was going primal and only had one day of where I kind of just relaxed.  So what did I get for it, a .5 pound weight gain and an upset stomach.  Then things changed and I ended up falling off the primal train.  At least I can tell that there is a change in things from my being on the diet and not just the weight loss which was almost 7 pounds.  No I’m talking about a change in my attitude and how I felt.  I hadn’t noticed it times before probably because I was allowing other things to occupy the small space in my mind and it just grew out of proportion.  So I think I have that locked up into a smaller space and am tackling it a small bit at a time instead of letting it overwhelm me.

So as convention season rapidly approaches, I find that I’m still extremely fluffy, which is what my hair dresser says because she too is fluffy.  I like her saying that and no we are not fooling ourselves into thinking that we are in shape, we are fluffy and recognize we need a better shape.  Realizing what time of year it is, I’m beginning to wonder if I can even lose enough weight to make a difference for anyone to see.

Why is it important for others to see any weight that I lose, well it is because I like to see that I’m not the only one who notices.  So maybe soon I will stop wearing the baggy long hanging tee shirts so people will see my progress.

Oh, didn’t I say this before….oops, sorry.  I’m going to be going primal again, yes once again I’m going to be focusing on what I eat and hopefully this time I will be more successful in sticking to better eating habits.

Everyone says that you need a goal, something to shoot for so I’ve set one for myself which I will reveal in just a few moments.  Ohhh, teaser!

One of the thing that has been bother me has been my finances, oh sure I have money to pay my bills but wouldn’t you know it, just as I find I have some money to spare an unexpected expense comes up.  One of those expenses is my truck which is 22 years old this month which means it has been a work horse.  Everyone keeps on telling me to get a new car but what they fail to see is that I’m not putting out a monthly car payment which is great and has allowed me to get a few things, maybe a few too many things but at least I’m just barely above living from paycheck to paycheck.  But I digress….   As I was saying, I had an unexpected expense concerning my truck and this was just after I spent money to buy new tires and was about to replace my shocks when blam… major problems with my truck.  My brakes suddenly failed and I heard a horrible noise that I couldn’t pinpoint.  A big repair bill later, my truck is okay but I still feel that it is not running correctly, maybe I will finally get my mechanic nephew to look at it for me.

So I still need some work done on my truck and I need to put my 21-year-old car into the shop just to get it to start.  It has been sitting for 3 years and so I have to have all of the fluids replaced, especially the manual transmission fluid.  They had replaced the slave valve on my manual transmission only didnt bleed it right and the air bubble in the line froze up my gears.  When that happened I didn’t have enough money to put it back in the shop, so it sat and just as I was going to put it into the shop for them to fix it so it can run, blam more problems with my truck.

This is what threw me off earlier while I was being primal and although it was stressful while I was by myself, still stressed because of time, I stayed true to being primal.  Now everything caught up with me and I hopped off being primal but have decided on a new start date and a new goal.

Another thing I was stressing about was that I wanted to buy a new espresso maker because I have a very cheap espresso maker, but at the time I wasn’t sure if this was something that I wanted to do.  So then I watched a lot of videos and did my best with what I had to work with, Mr. Coffee burr grinder and DeLonghi EC15 espresso maker.  Well I knew that my grinder wasn’t very good, especially since it only cost $25, so I moved up to a more expensive grinder, a Rocky grinder.  So I bought this and just after I bought the grinder was when my truck broke down. I watched more videos to try and see how I could improve on my espresso skills and it seems that I just can’t seem to get it right, no matter how I make adjustments.

Seeing that convention season is almost upon me, I need to start saving up my money for the conventions that I’m planning on attending.  So once again I will be putting off getting my Silvia espresso machine but there is a reason.  You know how everyone says that you should reward yourself when you reach your weight goals and it should not be a food reward…well I’m skimming the surface here.  If I reach my weight goal then I will reward myself after my usual convention season by buying my Silvia espresso machine with PID.  Oh and if you don’t know what that is, it a not cheap espresso machine so I can make my lattes and the PID is a device attached to the machine so that it will give me more consistency as I pull my shots of espresso.  I figure I could use all of the help I could get thus why the PID.

So what is my goal?  My goal will be to lose 30 pounds by Monday, August 31st.  Why then, well that is when I leave for my favorite mad time adventure…..DRAGONCON!!!!!

I did a count of the days and since I will be starting on Monday April 6th since the 5th is my mother’s birthday and Easter with candy, I know I will not make it and my will power will down the drain.  So I will begin being primal on Monday, which means that I will have 148 days to lose 30 pounds.

Wow, that’s a lot of days and you might think why don’t I try to lose more?  Well the truth of the matter is that I’ve never lost more than 15 pounds and that was during a 21 days of being primal a couple of years ago.  The hard part will be maintaining the weight loss but my big hope will be to lose even more.  So why only 30 pounds, well that will put me under 200 pounds.  No I’m not up to 230 but I want to be a bit below 200 pounds and I want to be able to see the loss on my body.  Would I like to lose more, heck yeah and I’m hoping that I can continue to lose even more weight.  I know what weight I would like to be but the odds are not so great for me being back to my weight when I first started working in my line of work, which was 125 pounds.

Although based on most weight charts that would make me still overweight and close to being considered obese…but there was very little fat on my body.  That was when I was jo-walking 5 miles a day and really there was virtually no fat, you could not even pinch an inch on my waistline it was that .  No six-pack abs but they were taut.

So my personal bet is if I lose 30 pounds by August 31st, then I will reward myself by buying my Rancilio Silvia w/PID after I get back from DragonCon.

Like I said, it is a lot of days to lose only 30 pounds but the trick will be keeping it off.  One of these days I’m going to don a costume for DragonCon and may even wear a couple.  But I’ve got a lot of work to do until that time and if I get close to the weight then I will have to make a costume.  That is an exciting thing to look forward to and in a way it is another goal I can have.

Will this be the year that makes a difference?  I certainly hope so because I’m tired of taking my BP meds and I’m tired of feeling uncomfortable in my clothes and with myself.  Time to make the body fit my hair.