Day 100

Okay so here I am at day 100 and I’m wondering what in the hell I have been doing for all of this time…oh wait, I know what I’ve been doing…eating poorly.

Yeah, I’ve got no one to blame but myself for not being on top of things and I know that I should have already achieved my goal by day 100 but I kept on falling backwards and finding one reason or another for me not to eat the correct way.

I had given myself 148 days to lose 30 pounds, a simple 30 pounds and thought, hey this will be easy, no problem.  Unfortunately I kept on putting things off and figuring that I could lose it without any problem but now I’m beginning to wonder if I’m stupid or lazy…wait, I’ve been both.

So I stepped on the scale this morning knowing that I would be in trouble today and I was right.  So far as of this morning I’ve lost a whole 3 pounds…three pounds, how disgusting.

Lately I’ve been realizing that I’ve been waiting too long to get serious about things, even when I had the 5 pound loss but what did I do, I did/ate whatever I wanted and let things slide.  Now that the rush is on I’ve been trying to contain my desire for sweets but keep on trying to find something that works.

I’m beginning to see that I’m about to get desperate and as I get desperate I’ve started doing some checking on the latest and greatest or at least the latest diet way to me.  I noticed something printed in the newspaper and decided why not look into it, maybe they would be offering some new way to lose weight other than the usual stuff which is calories in and calories out.

I was looking at it and went to the web site and was intrigued by the Nutrimost Fat Loss System and was listening to the testimonials and as typical, I was impressed by what most of them were saying.  So hell yes I was curious about what was happening and that was when the waters became very murky.  They continued with the song and dance talking about how great the system was and then they did something that got my attention, they said it doesn’t cost much compared to the cost of your health.  TRAP !!!!

Now they were talking about how they are giving you a discount and tell you to fill out a form and for $26 they can set you up for a consultation and that it normally costs $99.  But wait…there’s more!  Yes in deed when you go in for your consultation you will get a chance to put your hand on their special device which will measure things within your body based on the electrical stimulus that are sent through this device, it will measure the toxicity levels and all sorts of other things and then they will take that information and come up with a diet that is tailored for your weight loss, but they don’t call it a weight loss they call it a health improvement.  They then show a woman cooking a steak and having a couple of slices of tomato and how she takes some drops (I thought they said with no medication, guess taking drops doesn’t count as medicine) and it kills the appetite and in 30 days men can lose up to 40 pounds and in women they can lose up to 40 pounds in about 40 days and best of all you will keep it off.

Then I did some investigation of my own and learned that you have to buy all of these supplements before they tell you the results which basically comes down to eating 500-700 calories a day…calories in and calories out.  Many people are against this because the brain needs more than 500 calories to keep on function at high-capacity.  However, I will say there was something positive that I picked up from this diet system which was to drink alkaline water and that it would help detoxify my system and not leave me feeling quite as thirsty.

I did some research on the internet and learned from several reputable sites that drinking alkaline water can be healthy for your.  It can help flush some of the toxins out of the system but there are as always problems if you drink too much.  It appears that it can help some so I’m trying that to help settle my stomach but I’ve only just begun drinking it.  I’ve tried two different brands, one being chemically enhanced water and the other well sorry to disappoint, it too is artificially enhanced but I will say that the last one taste better.

So I’m going to drink it for a couple of days to try and get my body a little bit more balanced, if that is even possible, and then focus eating better…oh wait, I’m doing that for the last couple of days.

So this is going to be an interesting weekend, I’m hoping that I don’t have to rent a car to go out for my trike ride but if I can’t get my brother’s truck then I just might do that but then again I just might rent a vehicle anyway because I’m not sure if my other vehicle will be out of the shop.

I have a 94 Ford Escort and just had the slave valve replaced on my manual transmission about 3 years ago and started experiencing the same problem of the gears locking up and even when I pressed on the clutch…no let me correct that, when I stood on the clutch it still would not disengage the gear that the vehicle was in, which made it extremely difficult when I can to a stop light because I would have the clutch in, stomping on the brake pedal and then would have to pull the parking brake so I could slow my forward movement to 1 inch every 15 seconds.  Yeah, really a bad situation.  I called the shop and said I’m looking at over $200 in labor to look at the vehicle and seeing that I was still paying off a few loans and notes I had racked up while out of work, I didn’t have the money to spare.  So my Escort sat for 3 years and things started going bad, such as gas, battery died and I was already spending money on getting my 93 truck repaired.  Why the truck, because it was my baby truck and needed help.  Finally came across someone at work who said it sounded like an air bubble was stuck in the transmission fluid and as the engine got hotter, the bubble would go to the top and block any other fluid from flowing through the system.  I learned that too late.  My car had been sitting for just over 2 years so dead battery, bad gas and it needed more things done to it so it had to wait another year.

Escort is in shop getting fixed and I’m on pins and needles because so far the cost is around $1,000 for repair but that was a week ago when they said they were still testing my vehicle.  So why not get a new car or truck?    On my best dealings let’s say that I had a $300/month vehicle payment, that would mean that in 4 months I would have paid more than my repair bill but still would not own the vehicle for several years, 4 or 5 depending on how expensive of a car I wanted.  So my two babies will have to do for now.  My truck will need repair so that is why I can’t take it on long trips and I need it close by should it break down and driving over 300 miles away from home really puts me at risk.

So car worries aren’t helping me much but it is something to work through.  This is putting a little bit more stress on me and probably why I’ve still got a sweet tooth.

Oh, wait a minute, I made a chocolate cake in a mug following the Paleo guidelines but it tasted horrible.  It was dry even with whipped cream on it.  I decided to try another spoonful after lunch with some ice cream on the side but the cake resembled something of a rock, probably because it was rock hard.  The only good thing is that it is low on the net carb count which is good but what isn’t good is the lack moisture in the cake.

I later learned that coconut flour absorbs the moisture in whatever it is used so that is why my mug chocolate cake came out a total disaster.  So I will be changing a few things around, such as cutting down on coconut flour for a couple of reasons.  It was a very dry cake and maybe by cutting back on the coconut flour it will be a touch moister but # 2 reason is because I’m not a big fan of coconut.  As of this date the only coconut that I like is in coconut macaroons, the way I make them.  I’ll be experimenting with things, such as adding cacao butter and tweaking things here and there to satisfy my sweet tooth, but maybe just getting my car back from the shop will help curb my sweet craving.

Let me wrap this up, I’ve been a lazy person and not really focused on my weight loss.  I’ve loss 3 pounds from my start weight although I had also gained 4 pounds more than my start weight.  Now I’ve got to start getting serious if I want my espresso maker with all the bells and whistles (PID) system attached.  I already have a great coffee grinder which I’m still trying to get the grind right but with such a cheap espresso machine it really makes it hard to get things just right.

One last thing which has been bugging the heck out of me has been my inability to sleep.  I would be lucky to get 4 hours of sleep and it usually was interrupted sleep so that didn’t help any either.  Then when I went for my massage the guy puts a slightly weighted silk scarf across my eyes to block out the light and it helps to calm me down.  Hey get your filthy mind out of the gutter, I’m serious, he is a good therapist and has helped me get past my Carpal Tunnel Syndrome without surgery so I believe in him.  So I usually have to have a towel on my pillow, yes I drool from time to time, so I would use the towel for just in case.  Then I folded the towel a couple of times and put it over my eyes to get me to relax and shut out the bright light my neighbor has on the side of the house that shines in my window to make relax.  I’ve even been able to sleep on my back for the last few nights which is great for me.

Any way, by drinking the alkaline water I’ve started drinking more water and you know that does…it flushes the body system and hydrates you.  So here is to a hydrated me and a me getting more sleep and stressing out less.  I’m now in a tight race with myself because I want that espresso machine.  But the better thing would be that I’m in better shape and health at the end of these 48 days.

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Primal For 21 Days – Day 19 – A Slip

Yea I had a slip up this afternoon and it is driving me crazy.  We (brother #2, my mom and I) went out to eat with brother #4 and his wife at a nice taco house.  Well we sat down and what did I do?  Yep, I started to much on some chips.  I had maybe 3 chips in total but I’m going to count it as 5 chips in total which is weighing in heavy on my part.  After looking it up I see that I ate about 11 grams of carbs for that and am still shocked how quickly I slipped into old eating habits.  So I had a slip up but I’m not going to let that drag me down.  I’ve only got 2 more days and I need to refocus on these last two days.

Well I opened up the carton of eggs and saw that the eggs I’ve been eating had 1 carb per egg, so instead of .3 for each egg it is 1 carb, but I’m not going to go back and correct what I listed simply because it is too much work and I guess you can say that I’m lazy…wait that is why I gained so much weight.  But still too hard for me to go back and fix the listings but those are only on the eggs from the range free vegetarian diet chickens.  So here we go and let’s see what’s happening food wise.

Breakfast:

Egg, Large 2 2
Coffee w/Sweetener/Cream/FV creamer SF/WC SF 1 mug 2
Applewood Bacon – Thick 2 slices 0

Lunch:

Corn Chips – Restaurant Style 5 11
Guacamole 1/4 cup 5
Chicken – Fajita style 1 oz 1

Dinner:

Hamburger Patty w/Provolone Cheese & Bacon 1 0
Green Beans-French Cut w/mushrooms 1 cup 6

 

Snack:

Almonds – Cocoa Roast 36 g 8
Iced Coffee 1 glas 2

 

Day 19 Totals:  37 GRAMS OF CARBOHYDRATES

Well although I’m just now eating my dinner, I have already had one package of almonds and I’m pretty positive that I’m going to be eating a second package.  The chocolate roast on the almonds just puts the almond taste right over the top and kind of makes me feel as if I’m cheating unlike I was doing earlier when munching on the chips.

I also decided that I would rather have my coffee over ice and make it sort of like a little treat for me so it lets me feel as if I’m cheating when I’m not.  So I’m below the 50 mark once again and like I have been for most of these days.  Do I think it will allow me to lose more weight, well not really because I know my body by now and although diet is a large part of it, unless I exercise the weight is not going to come off.

So I’m going to try and exercise on Monday and Tuesday, at least do some walking and maybe then I will feel better about myself and maybe, just maybe it will help me in losing some of my weight.

Now don’t get me wrong, I love my brother but sometimes with him being a vegetarian and us choosing a place that he can eat at sure limits me.  But he has been this way for over 40 years, being a vegetarian in case you couldn’t guess, so I’m living with it.  Heap plenty difficult when I’m also on a very low carb routine.  Oh well, only a few more days and then it will be weigh-in time.  Would you believe that I’m already getting nervous about it?  I know I shouldn’t stress about it but I guess I just want to prove a point to myself if no one else and show that I can do this and despite my two slips I can find ways to eat healthy and chose wisely when I eat.

I will admit that I will probably take a day or so to relax after the 21 days but then I’m going to get back on it and start eating better and doing more to help myself lose this weight.  I guess I’m going to be my own cheerleader because I should not have to rely on anyone else but myself.  Why….well I’m the only one who put the weight on me.  Oh man, oh man, oh man, wish I could have know what would happen to me once I left one city because I was fit and trim and loving the way I looked and feeling great.  Oh well that was the past and now it is time to start looking at how to get close to how I used to feel.

So after tonight……only 2 more days!!!!!!

Primal For 21 Days – Day 9

Well first off I woke up feeling better than I have in about 22 days which is about how long I’ve been fussing with my allergies and bronchitis.  Forgot to get my Rx filled so will see how I feel tomorrow and if my glands are still swollen and sore then I will fill it, if not then things may be okay.

I slept in which really helped me feel better which is what I needed especially because at night things get worse allergy wise.  Well let me go ahead and post and let’s see where I stand.

 

Breakfast:

2 Eggs scrambled with 1/8 cup raw spinach 1 0.14
Applewood Bacon – Thick 2 slices 0
Coffee with Stevia/Creamer 1 cup 2

 

Lunch:

Skipped was out doing things

 

Dinner:

Hamburger Patty – Juicy w/provolone cheese 1 0
Potato – Baked w/butter/cheese/bacon/dressing 1 medium 40
Salad:Lettuce/Tomato/Bacon/Dressing 1 1/2 cup 6

 

Snack:

Chocolate Cake w/Frosting                                                                    1 slice                                      40

 

Snack:

Hydrating Liquid Powerade Zero                                                      32 oz                                          2.5

 

Carbohydrates for day 9:             90.64  GRAMS TOTAL CARBOHYDRATES

 

Well I was doing okay until dinner and then I went and had a slice of birthday cake.  My friend wanted me to go out and celebrate her birthday with her but that meant she was going drinking and I really do not think that I would have been able to pass on the liquor so instead I bought her a cake and had a slice.  It tasted wonderful and I was so tempted to have another piece but that was done and once I had eaten it I was feeling guilty about having eaten but I know that I will definitely need to drink some more water, a lot more water and need to go walking tomorrow.

Now you should know that I was already planning on going walking and plan on taking things easy, I don’t really want to push myself too hard as I’m just beginning to feel better.  I was shocked to see that I was still below the 100 grams which is my goal so in a way I was sticking to my goal although it was more than I’ve had in quite a while.  So if I feel better then it is time to start kicking my allergies out of my nose and get control of my nose and allergies so I can continue to feel better and slowly build up my exercise routine.

So I survived a rough day and still managed to stay on track.  Wow, that was hard and glad that I have that out of my system.  I stopped at only that one piece of cake thinking that I want to be able to wear jeans that aren’t stretch jeans and that I can look decent in them.  That is my first goal to be able to fit back into regular jeans and not stretch jeans.  So time to start exercising and doing things such as walking and that will also hopefully lower my blood pressure so I won’t have to take any medications.

I know it sounds silly but I feel like I’ve renewed my determination to make it for at least twelve more days, I may not be able to fit into regular jeans by then but at least I hope to feel better about myself and will use that to keep on being primal.

 

Day 5 – Getting Better

Okay as this states things seem to be getting better, mainly because EDQ is not at work today and no one has bothered to tell me what or where she is, yet does that bother me….not in the slightest bit.  I’m enjoying a bit of quiet in the building.  Then I learned from one of my co-workers that EDQ is playing childhood games of trying to get people to be angry or upset with me because I told her to stop and not to broadcast my personal business.

I’m so happy that I’m not concerned about who at work likes me and who is mad at me.  Funny thing is that I stopped worrying about that stuff because in elementary and jr. high.  Good golly, I come here to work and to earn a living and to perform my duties as best I can that and keep my personal problems at home, doesn’t always work but I’m getting better at it.

So I was up early to take my mother to the bus station since she didn’t want to fly but went back to bed and tried to sleep.  I hate broken sleep but I guess broken sleep is better than not getting any sleep.  I’m glad that I did sleep because it probably made things easier for me.  My partner, EDQ, apparently took today off but no one has said anything, not even my supervisor but that is okay after about 15 minutes I realized she wasn’t here which meant it would be a peaceful calm day and this being my Friday, I need some peace.

Bummer of things is that my hair styler had to cancel our morning appointment so my dark roots are showing through….drag.  I think I still have my appointment with my Acupuncturist or at least I hope so.  I think that this weekend I will end up pushing my luck and driving my 20 year old truck up to visit with my brother’s mother-in-law before it is too late.  She is an awesome lady and I love her dearly.

So I want to thank any and all who have suffered through all of my ranting.  You are wonderful.

Well my hair stylist just called and we reset for tomorrow and hopefully I will still have my appointment tomorrow for Acupuncture so that will be okay.  Just heard from my mother and it is a good thing that I’m not planning to drive up to see the dying friend because she is being moved out of ICU to her home with a hospice care taker.  So I can at least wait a day or two while they get things set up for her and that will let me get my hair done and needles stuck in me.  Looking forward to getting a bit more relief from CTS with Friday’s visit.

Well I guess I should start out with my meals and make myself accountable for everything.

 

BREAKFAST:   None, slept through it.

LUNCH:  Chicken friend chicken breast patty w/cheese and alfredo sauce; 1 small chocolate square  –   42g

DINNER:  Pot roast and green beans, for desert red velvet cake ice cream  –  33g

 

So as you can see, so far I’m really doing good on the carb count.  Now there is no guarantee what I will do when I go home because now that the stress is not there I’m rather hungry.  But at least I can sleep hopefully a little bit more peacefully because of the lack of drama and because I really don’t care if they like me at work or not.  This is a job and it is our duty to do the work and that is what I’m doing and have been doing for 5 years or at least it will be 5 years come next month.

So the night is getting better with the news of my friend with cancer and the calm at work is going very far to sooth me and let me enjoy my job once again.

Oh yeah, I was a very bad girl because I got on the bathroom scale again.  I got on it when I got up in the morning at 6am and it read 207.0 which was good because I was very bad and had some Fritos with my drink last night.  So that really did make me happy because although it wasn’t much I had lost 0.1 pounds.  But then I got on the scale later after I got up for the day and saw that I weighed 206.0 which really made me feel so much better.  I began to remember that sleep does help and allows you to lose weight so I will need to get more sleep so I can also lose weight.

 

GOOD:   Carb counts for the day, getting more sleep, much less stress, I’ve gotten past point of worrying who likes me and who doesn’t like me at work.

BAD: Not being informed that my co-worker would not be there, but I’m really okay with it.  I just count it as bad because of my supervisor’s lack of communication.  Should I count this as bad or what.  I brought a double chocolate fudge cake for work “Because” and it was our because cake.  So was I bad to bring it to work?  You’ll note that I did not list that on the food eaten because I didn’t have any, what a miracle that was.

 

Despite the sad calls happening at work, I’m more at ease and more at peace with myself and look forward to maybe going home and making some popcorn.  Wow, that really does sound great.  Maybe I’ll even cook some bacon in the morning.