P D E – Potato Restart

So when I last wrote, it was day 41 and I had lost a total of 25 pounds.  That was a wonderful day although there were so many things going crazy.  I had to prepare a few things for the upcoming Thanksgiving dinner as well as try to figure out when and where to cook everything as well as get the meat for the meals.

Normally it is just me and my mother of Thanksgiving day and then I rush off to work but not this year.  This year because one of my brothers was going to South Africa to visit his daughters during the Christmas holidays, the girls are currently working and living in that part of the world.  Anyways, that brother decided that he wanted to spend Thanksgiving with us because they wouldn’t be here for Christmas so then the other brother who lives in another part of the state decided that he would join us for Thanksgiving dinner which is really a lunch.

The brother who is going to be out of country is a vegetarian and the only one of us who is that way so we have to fix several things just for him which of course my mother volunteered to cook.  I wasn’t sure if I was going to make any cake balls until one of the nieces or nephews asked what flavors I was going to make.  Yikes!!!   This means I had to make some for the family and whatever is left over will go to the station for the crew to eat.

I officially fell off the potato wagon on Saturday the 19th which was day 42 of my Potato Diet Experiment.  So I started baking my cakes, chocolate cake and orange cake to make my cake balls.  The first was chocolate fudge cake with peanut butter frosting filling coated in chocolate coating shell and the last was orange cake with vanilla frosting center coated in vanilla coating shell.  The cake balls are basically easy to make but they are very time consuming to make.  Unfortunately not all of this can be done by touch and feel, I have to taste the mixture to make sure everything is at the right consistency.  Let’s just say that a few cake balls made it into my mouth and this was bad.

So I at least ate some potatoes during the weekend and week of Thanksgiving but not enough and we quickly ran out of room in the fridge to keep them so the potatoes were not prominent in my diet.  I did try to control some of the foods that I ate but obviously not enough of what I should have eaten.

Let’s just say that I ate what I wanted but tried to slightly control myself … that is until Thanksgiving.  I had pies, sweet potato casserole, green bean casserole, crescent rolls, cranberry jelly, ham, turkey and probably some other but I’ve forgotten.  On Thanksgiving day when I ate with the family I tried to be good by not eating much but was starving at work especially since one of the country club chefs cooked seafood paella which I had to sample.  But I took some of everything else I had for lunch for dinner that night.

I had more of the same stuff on Friday and Friday night along with pizza, then Saturday I had the same stuff again for both lunch and dinner, as well as having the combo of food once more for lunch and dinner on Sunday.

There is one thing I can say about eating foods other than potatoes…I need to buy stock in Tums and Alka-Seltzer because I was swallowing those like they were going out of style.  I would be paying myself for using those products but I had no one to blame but myself.  It is hard for me to think because my thinking process went into a slump and I actually had a hard time focusing on things probably also because I was having problems sleeping.

Wrapping up my Thanksgiving experience is kind of easy, I ate wrong and ate too much of the wrong things and couldn’t get any decent sleep.

So here I am on Day 51 from my original start date getting back on the wagon of weight loss.  I stepped up on the scale and my weight was 201.3 pounds.  This means that I gained 6.3 pounds for the 9 days that I was off of the diet.  Yeah that is a lot of weight to gain but the reality is that normally I wouldn’t be eating half of what was being served.  Now I’m going to have to use my Food Saver and see about putting a lot of the left overs in those sealed bags so it will be handing for my brother and maybe for us to have again come out Christmas dinner time.  Which we are having early this year because that is when one brother can come into town.

There are so many times that I really, really miss living out of state from my family.  One of the reason is the fact that it is too hard for me to get off because the last few jobs I’ve had are jobs where I’m considered essential personnel and I must be at work no matter the weather or the holiday.  Hey, it’s not bad because I get paid like OT pay for working the holidays and I get to save the holiday for another time.

Maybe I can talk my mother into going to one of my brother’s place for Thanksgiving and/or Christmas.  I miss not being able to skip it because of work.  Now don’t get me wrong, I love my family and really enjoy our time together but everyone gathering at my place which is a very small house and you try putting 22 people in there and see how comfortable you are….not very.  Even my mother is tired of everyone coming by so she wants to volunteer to serve Thanksgiving dinner at one of the big free turkey dinner places next year.  That certainly will get us out of cooking and keep down the left overs.

But enough of that nonsense.  Today is Day 51 of the big PDE or Restart Day 1.

One thing that I’ve been very happy with is that up until this last week or so, I’ve been under 200 pounds.  It was a bit of relief in my mind.  I actually thought that maybe by this spring I might go to a nearby city and do a zip line ride and I could even do it sooner because most of the time they have a 200 pound limit in order to get on the ride.  I’m only 1.3 pounds away from that so even though I won’t be doing that any time soon, my goal is to get to 200 pounds.  Then I would love to be at 190 pounds by the end of the year.  I think that is a realistic goal but something I will need to focus on.

I also thought that I would consider doing some light walking around the neighborhood or maybe even get out my trike and ride in an area where there aren’t a lot of hills.  Now that part about finding a place to ride without a lot of hills will be a bit of a challenge because there are hills everywhere in my city which is normally not to much of a problem but I don’t want to start exerting too much energy because then that will throw off my losing weight.  So light walking or riding will be my goal.

So I’m back to eating potatoes only this time I’m adding salt and I noticed that when I started adding picante sauce to my meals, I started getting a lot of gas which I think is because of the picante sauce which has tomatoes, uncooked onions and peppers in them.  All three of those items all give me gas, so maybe I’ll just keep to my potatoes and a touch of salt.  I’ve got until the 17th of next month to lose as much as possible because when the family comes in I know I will have another set back so I want to be prepared.

I hope this is the great start to another successful weight loss time.

New Year Better Eating

Yes like so many people I would like to make a resolution that I will lose weight when the fact of the matter is that I’ve lost a lot of weight but gained most of it back.  You know the “Yo-Yo” effect, well that’s been me.

So many times I find that I get bored eating the same thing day in and day out and too often if I don’t prepare things in advance I fall and then it is hard to get back to better eating.  I don’t know if anyone else experienced what I did over the Thanksgiving/Christmas holidays and if you did then I’m sorry but if you didn’t then just be thankful.  What did I experience, pain!  Pain in the form of weight gain, pain in the form of eating too much and pain in the stomach because the things I was consuming were making me feel sick to my stomach.  I was living on Tums and Alka-Seltzer almost for two months and I just couldn’t stop myself.  Okay it doesn’t help that work was extremely stressful.  Yeah I know everyone would say breathe in and out slowly or count to 10 but those don’t work very well for me.

Did I say that I was stressed well I most definitely was stressed and my hair stylist agreed with me, saying she was having to cover more gray than usual.  Let’s just say that where I work was extremely stressful for the last two months and no even my massages helped relieve the stress.

 

SICK

Yeah I was sick and it seemed that no matter what I ate, I was getting sick.  I was living pretty much on 6 Tums per day and/or 1 or 2 doses of Alka-Seltzer per day.  Yes I know that it is not good for me but I was looking for relief.  I kept on seeing that it was because we were eating food that we normally would not eat but still I ended up eating it and I might have started out with the idea of only having a tablespoon of something but then it seemed the more I limited myself the more tablespoons of the food I ate.  I know that it wasn’t good for me but I couldn’t stop myself because it is not something that I would usually eat.  So the food was richer and I was eating a lot more than I normally had but I seemed powerless to stop myself.

 

Finally it looks as if most of that food is out of the house and I’m getting more of the food that I should eat back into the house but it is a slow change over process.  I got so sick on some food last week that if I moved I felt sick, if I sat still I felt sick and the worse part of all is my pants are tight and they are my stretch pants.  I think I have a permanent indentation around my middle from where my waistband should be.

 

Solution:

Oh the solution is simple, eat better and eat healthier and then I will lose weight and be more energetic.

Yeah we’ve all read the articles and see the ads in print, video, TV and Internet about how you can quickly lose weight and never feel hungry.  Well I learned that those are not the way for me, many of them make you count calories and although I passed Calculus II in college with an ‘A’, I still don’t like doing the math of counting calories.  Note they tell you to do all of the counting and then to exercise, exercise, exercise but how can you do it when it actually hurts when you’re obese and try to do their exercises.  All too often then do not account for the fact that if you’re fat, you’re not able to move in way and if the exercises are too strenuous and hurt so after one or two tries I stop doing them either because I hurt myself or else they are too intense for me.

If only we could take weight off as easily as we put it on, that would be my one wish, forget World Peace.  Sorry just watched Ms Congeniality and just had to toss in the last part.  With my weight gain I’ve also become less active and yet when I used to live in another city, I used to run 6 days out of the week, come rain, sunshine, extremely hot temperatures or cold temperatures the only thing was that I had already lost the weight and found that I needed this outlet for all of my energy and I was eating whatever I wanted or could afford and by afford I meant because I had less than $20 to spend on groceries per week.

That was then and this is now and now is what has me concerned.  I’ve found with the few extra pounds that I’ve put on have put on, doing simple things is leaving me short of breath.  It seemed to happen so quickly so I scared myself into realizing that something has got to change and it is only something that I can do.  So with my weak will power I’m going to try and do something that will help me and it starts with me having better eating habits.

I can’t change how I eat such as in a rush or at my desk because I don’t really get time away from my desk to eat my dinner but I’m going to try and chew my food a little bit longer and maybe the chewing action will help.  I’m very picky when it comes to vegetables and I really don’t like a lot of vegetables so I’m going to eat more than the usual green beans and broccoli for my source of vegetables.

I’ve already started eating better starting today.  Unfortunately I didn’t wake up in time for breakfast before I had to rush off to an appointment and when I finally got home I was starving because it was almost 1130 hours.  I tried to relax eating and managed to do that a little bit and then took a nap before I left for work.  By the time five o’clock came around my stomach was growling big time.  So I ate and this may not be such a great thing since I usually get off at 2300 hours and the odds are I will need to grab a snack to eat before that time.  Maybe I’ll raid that pouch of tuna fish that I hid at work and mix it with mayo so it will be a better snack.

Remember me saying that I wanted to relax more as I ate, well I was doing my best and my partner was trying to take the foot traffic  coming into the building and the only lady in the lobby left but then she came back in and walked right up to me just as I put the food in my mouth.  I had to step away and thankfully my partner handled it because the only way I would be able to talk with the lady would have meant that I would have to swallow my food with very little chewing which would make for a very upset stomach.  My partner tried to take care of her but she was one of those people who are just lonely and just wants to talk.  So much for trying to relax and enjoy my meal at work.

Remember my saying I was always running out of time to prepare food, well I had a little bit of help today because they cooked the butternut squash for me and I had some cauliflower rice to go with my beef fajita meat and only used may for my condiment instead of wrapping the beef fajita in a tortilla.  The real thing that I wanted to say was that I’m trying to take care of my protein part of eating better.  I went to the store and bought some ground beef for hamburger patties, ground turkey for hamburger patties, chicken sausages, fajita chicken breasts and bacon, all of which were cooked out on my grill.  Once everything had cooled down I vacuum sealed them in the food saver bags and now I have 8 beef burgers with mozzarella cheese chunks and dried cranberries; 8 turker burgers with spinach and shredded mozzarella cheese, 6 fajita marinated chicken breasts cooked and cut up like for fajita servings, 5 chicken spinach and mozzarella sausages (hot dog size), and 1 1/2 pound of bacon all cooked up.  Now the bacon stays in the fridge for snacks and the rest have all been sealed up so I have the proteins all done.

I’m happy that I been able to eat better today and I realized that I got up late and was more concerned with getting my cup of coffee that I forgot to weigh in.  So on Saturday morning I was at 221.9 but on Sunday I was at 219.7; so I figured that I would go somewhere in between the two and chose 220.5 as my starting weight.  The important thing I should have done but didn’t do was take my blood pressure which I need to do when I get off and start keeping better track of it.

I noticed one thing though, I didn’t start having shortness of breath until I started taking my BP meds but now it is a regular thing.  I know, go to the doctor and get this take care of and I will do this, I just need to find a doctor because the last one moved out of state and the one before that went to Doctors Without Borders.

I should be off work early tonight so I’ll probably go home and make breakfast muffins so I can have something with my coffee and maybe even make some blueberry muffins the paleo/primal way so that I won’t go overboard on these items.

Plus I need to run to the store and buy some BBQ tools because my old ones have grown legs and run away.  It got so cold Sunday afternoon while grilling and I couldn’t find my bike lock to secure my gas grill to something outside that I had to haul it inside w/o being able to clean it.  I keep on forgetting it wasn’t summer time and so I wasn’t paying too much attention to the sun until it started setting….oops!  So finished cooking just as the sun was setting and the temperature had gone from high 60’s to 50 degrees, almost 18 degree change.

Either way, protein cooked, now to work on the veggies and put them in the smaller bags so all I have to do is grab a bag and stuff it into my lunch bag and head out in time to be to work on time.

So healthier and happier eating to you.

Lost My Way

Well I didn’t really try very hard during the holidays to control things and it really shows.  I now have problems even fitting into my work pants much less fastening them without having to suck my gut in.  So you could say that I succeeded in gaining weight but that wasn’t really what I wanted to do.

Then I thought that I would start in January but kept coming up with excuse after excuse and before I knew it I had hit a record high on my weight….. 219.9, I said it.  I got up to 220 lbs and I had not been that heavy since early 2000.  Now of course in the spring of 2000 I lost 17 pounds in 15 days.  The thing is that I didn’t realize that I was losing that much weight and it came off so easily.  Probably the reason I lost it so quick and easily was because I was on vacation.  Bet that is the first time you’ve heard of people losing that much weight while on vacation. I went to Spain then Portugal back to Spain, to the UK (Rock of Gibraltar) and finished up in Spain.

I know you’re thinking trick diet, no it was just being on the go all of the time.  We ate at least 3 meals a day but we walked everywhere and I was carrying around a camera bag.  So I was lifting weights (my camera bag) and walking 5-10 miles a day.  The funny thing was that I was eating all sorts of unhealthy things…well not really unhealthy but let’s just say that a breakfast sandwich of egg/bacon/on a roll for breakfast/lunch/dinner wasn’t the wisest choice but it sure was tasty.  So now that I think about it, the person I was traveling with didn’t like the local cuisine too much so we ate a lot of American fast foods.  When we did eat locally it was pork or seafood and yes there was a lot of starch items such as rice, lots of rice in the dishes that we ate.  The thing was that we did a lot of exercise and despite them having siesta, we were still pretty much on the move.

I wish I could have stayed longer and maybe I would have lost more weight but that didn’t happen but it took 2 years of bad eating for the weight to start coming back.  So the lesson I should have kept in mind was exercise, exercise, exercise.  Because I was so active I managed to burn what I ate.

I know I’ve probably recognized that before but right now it is really hitting home because of my pants being so tight as well as my sports bras.  That part really sucks.  Just a few months ago I had loose fitting clothes and now they are fitting very tightly.

So the other day during one of the few very cold days in our city, I came across an older gentleman (only saying that because of his white hair and beard) who didn’t act old.  He had just stopped in a convenience store right across from my station and I had a chance to talk with him.  I was riding a red trike and it was all decked out, I’ll explain later.  So after speaking to him a bit I learned that he started his trike journey in Seattle, WA, turns out he has traveled well over 2100 miles all on his trike.

So his trike was all decked with a computer, mirrors, flags, lights, rack w/saddlebags, water bottle holder and windjammer.  The windjammer covered the front giving him some protection from the elements of the road which pulled down over the top of his trike.

I was really amazed at what he had been doing but I knew that he was in a hurry to get in as the weather was getting colder and soon it would be dark and he also needed to get checked into his hotel.  But I asked him how comfortable it was to ride and he said it was the best ride.  I mentioned that I was interested in one and he asked me why and I said because I have CTS.  He smiled and said he too had CTS, back problems and some minor knee problems.  I asked how he was able to make such a long ride and he said he was because of the trike.  He pointed out a few things to me and then suggested that I should do some research on the internet but to be careful if I decide to buy one and to buy one that would last me for years because if I really like bicycling and be prepared to drop some money on it.

Boy was he right!  I took a look at some of the trikes and right away I found some but they were almost $1,000 and that was a bit high.  So I did some more research and landed on a couple of manufacturers and then I truly had sticker shock at seeing their price tags for their trikes.  Then there were Delta trikes and Tadpole trikes and so I did some more research into those type of trikes.

Long story short, I determined that I would be more comfortable with a tadpole style trike because the handlebars/steering was down by my side where on the delta trikes I would still need to raise my arms which had become a problem with my CTS.  After less than a week of looking for the type of trike as well as the make of the trikes then I had to find a shop that had these bikes because in my city the only type of dealer of tadpole trikes was a bicycle touring company and they only had two different makes of trikes.  So I had to drive over 90 miles to a nearby city (nearby is all relative) where I came across a recumbent bike shop.

They allowed me to try out several trikes but after one quick spin, my wallet and my heart was set on a particular trike.  So a few hours later I come home hurting in my wallet but happiness was on my face.  I bought my trike.

Just in case you are wondering what I bought, my wallet allowed me to buy a Catrike Pocket tadpole trike.  It was fitted for me since probably no one else will be riding it and then off I went with my trike in the bed of my truck.

So I had lost my way for about 2 1/2 months.  I’m truly hoping the purchase of my new trike will be lots of fun and maybe then I will get back into being active.  You might want to check one of my other bogs, “Recumbent Trike Riding” for some more details about my trike ordeal.

I will be checking in and letting you know if that is helping me be more active.  I will say that I have had  blast riding it and I look forward to the weather giving me a break so I can ride it some more.  So maybe that will help me see the light at the end of the long weight loss tunnel.

Day 9 of 28

Finally it happened, I dropped below 200 pounds but not by very much, when I stepped on the scale this morning it showed 199.5 pounds which meant that for all day of having smoothies all I had to show was a loss of 6/10 of a pound.  Kind of disappointing especially after the weight loss of 3.7 pounds after day 1.  Needless to say it is hard to get motivated for the day but I went on with the rest of the day knowing that at least I was below 200 pounds…not by very much but at least it was a little bit.

So I started out the day slightly disappointed but still a little happy, so I had bought one of those ceramic pans and was excited to try it out so that I wouldn’t have to use the olive oil non-stick spray well that wasn’t the case and I ended up leaving too much egg on the pan so my day was not really going quite as well as I had hoped.  I put the eggs in corn tortillas and lightly sprinkled them with low-fat mozzarella cheese and ended up being very unsatisfied and about 10 minutes later I started feeling a little ill.  So I popped some substitute tums and my stomach settled down.  So stomach problem eliminated.

Well I ended up doing something and losing too much time and before I knew it, it was time to get ready for work but I was hungry.  So I made a smoothie, I remember how if I skipped a meal and drank a smoothie last week in lieu of the meal I seemed to have lost weight so I thought that I would do that again.  So I made a blueberry shake only I was out of fat-free blueberry yogurt and used regular fat-free greek yogurt, blueberries, banana, protein and lots of spinach and only added a small amount of ice and it tasted pretty good but I had to gulp it down and was on the rush to get out of the house in time to make it to work and I just barely made it in time.

About two hours into work I started to get hungry and by 1730 hours I was starving and was about to heat up my dinner that I brought but only to find out that I had left half of my planned diner back at the house.  So I had to try and figure out something that I could eat without going totally crazy by eating too much so I ended up having a Gyros and of course it ended up having fries with it.  Well I had a small gyro and 4 french fries and felt horrible afterwards.  I’m not sure if it was the guilt of eating something that I shouldn’t have had or if it was because it was too much…at least that is what I thought until I got off of work.  By the time I got home I was absolutely starving and I mean the point of tummy rumbling and actually feeling hunger pains…really.  So I ended up having a hamburger on bread with cheese and 1/2 avocado.

Yeah I was that hungry and even had a diet soda to go with my hamburger, so I had it and was okay for about 20 minutes.  That is when my stomach got extremely upset and I took another sip of soda hoping to burp and make myself feel better but that didn’t work and drinking water wasn’t helping.  So I took a laxative and this is not something that you should do but because of what I had done I was extremely miserable and would not be able to sleep so better I stay up a little longer and let everything run their course if you know what I mean.  So now I’m sitting up waiting for things to finish up and will start hopefully the morning feeling better.

There are a few things that I will focus on doing better, namely eating a bit better but since tomorrow is my day off I will also push a wee bit harder to eat what I should and although I did some walking I did not exercise like I should have done.

Oh yeah almost forgot to mention that.  Well I usually work out at work in our very small exercise room and was going to do that after work but there were 2 guys already working out in the small room and although it doesn’t bother me to work out when others are around but seeing that I was going to have to do lunges/planks and push ups and then step up and step down and I would have to move around to the room and three people in a little room doesn’t really work very well. So tomorrow when I’m supposed to relax I will be hiking, provided my foot is better and will do the exercises I missed doing tonight.  The only good thing that I did was take a mile walk during my breaks at work so that is the only good thing that I managed to get done right for the day.  It would have been better if I had exercised but when I left work my hunger was taking over.

So let me go ahead and put up my shameful disaster of a menu for my eating on this day:

Breakfast – 2 eggs in corn tortillas, diet soda

Lunch – blueberry smoothie including spinach

Dinner – gyro on whole wheat pita and 4 french fries

Snack – Hamburger on whole wheat bread, cheese, avocado

So as I stated, the only thing good that I did for the day was Walk 1 mile.

 

I’m truly hoping that tomorrow is a much better day and I will get back to eating better.

21 Days To Go

So if you’ve been following on my main site you will see that I’ve started my 21 days of going Primal.  I was going to wait one more day before starting it because I made some awesome macaroni and cheese from scratch which was okay for a first attempt but I knew that I could improve.  I almost convinced myself to hold off until Monday and start things like everyone else until I stepped on the scale this morning.

Yep, you guessed it, massive weight gain.  I was 208 when I took the days off and as of this morning I weighed in at a whopping 210.8 pounds rounded up means that I weigh 211 pounds.  That is a gain of 3 pounds in the three days that I took off from eating good.  Yeah you heard me right took off from eating good because those days I mostly had a stomach ache and was chomping on TUMS like they were candy.  It was a combination of stressing out from my friend dying and just feeling empty inside.

Things basically suck at work thanks to EDQ but then again I shouldn’t let it bother me but it does.  Then the other day I came across something on Facebook and it made me start to think about some of the things I do and about how maybe I should adopt some of these ideas.  They are suggestions to be happy.  Now I don’t agree with all of them but it is something else besides being primal that I will be working on.

Ways To Be Happy:

Give up your self-defeating self-talks – unfortunately this is what I tend to do a lot, meaning that I judge and rethink over most of my actions and it only seems to upset me the more I think about it.  So I will stop being so self-defeating.

Give up complaining – now this one seems impossible for me to do because I think it is in my nature to complain but actually it isn’t.  It is something that I learned and based on the way I complain I must have retaken the class over and over again.  So that means I’ve just got to accept that my complaining won’t do anything but stress me out.  But I will probably vent once and do it so no one else will hear me.

Give up excuses – well this one really will hit home as I struggle with my 21 days of focused primal eating and exercising.  I can’t use the excuse that we were having bad weather so I couldn’t do some exercises because today I’m defeating that idea by doing small amounts of exercises.

Give up your resistance to change – this should be easy because I like to believe that I’m adaptable but sometimes it takes something being dropped in my lap or on my head for me to change.  So I will believe that change can make a difference especially in my attitude.

Exercise – I know that so many people have said it and I actually remember in my past that I really enjoyed exercising and it put me in a great mood even when poop hit the fan and I didn’t know if I would be able to pay a bill or two.  I just exercised and soon the stress of the situation eased and I remember being happier.  So definitely exercise even if it is just my inside laps in the building.  I’ll elaborate more later.

Be more accepting – I need to remember that not everyone thinks the same as I do (I know a real shocker!) and that I need to be a more tolerant and accepting of their different opinion. Even when I believe that they are totally wrong, I will not argue my beliefs because they have a right to their opinion as do I.  So I’ll just take it with a grain of salt so it doesn’t increase the number of gray hairs on my head.  Sorry but I’m fighting going gray which is why I visit my hair stylist at least once a month, she does great work.

So those are things that I will be trying to do while I begin this 21 day journey into better eating and a change in my weight.  I know that my weight will be decreasing because I will follow through on better eating and exercising most of all because I believe in me.  No one else may especially seeing how many times I’ve failed at trying to lose weight but for 21 days I will concentrate .

Got to take a quick time and do my next 5 minute walk which I’ll write about when I get back.

Well I’m back and that is the second time today at work that I’ve done my 5 minute walk.  So when I can’t go out and exercise before work or don’t feel like doing it after work, I will do 5 minute walks around the building with my coming back to the front desk where I work every minute.  This way I can stop and answer a call or handle people who might come into my building.  So that is my inside 5 workout.  I’m going to be adding some wall pushbacks very soon to help strengthen my arms.

What are wall pushbacks?  Well since I have

CTS (Carpal Tunnel Syndrome) and it is actually bugging the heck out of my, I can not put a lot of weight on my hands.  So I will take the push up bars and use them against the wall.  I start out up against the wall then take a few steps away from the wall, keeping my feet together I will lean in to the wall and push back up just like a pushup only I’m vertical instead of horizontal but still having to use my arms to push away from the surface.

So what exactly will I be doing for 21 days, well I’ll be focusing on my food, exercise and better outlook on things at work.  Which means no more of my complaining about EDQ, I’ll just come to work and do my job the best I can do and then go home at the end of the shift.  I might have to do some deep breathing exercises to remain calm but better than raising my blood pressure and making myself more stressed.

Now that I’ve stated some of my choices let me begin listing what I have eaten and will be eating today.

BREAKFAST:   coffee w/creamer, 2 slices of bacon – 2 grams

LUNCH:  grilled chicken breast cheese sandwich  – 20 grams

DINNER:  friend chicken, mashed potatoes (1/2 med potato baked)  – 25 grams

 

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Well that brings me up to exercising which has been severely lacking in the past.  So far today I’ve at least made an effort to do something which is at least do interior building walking twice so far and I hope to do it at least twice more before the end of my shift at 2300 hours.

Of course you realize that the moment you start something like a diet that is when you always have something that you wanted to cook or just cooked something and had it left over.  Or often in my case that is when I get the craving for a drink and I don’t mean a diet drink; I’m talking about alcoholic beverages.  I could swear that I hear my growing liquor collection calling out to me and telling me that I need to visit them.  Well they will have to wait for a while but of course I didn’t really have a desire for a mixed drink until I started this 21 days of hell, or at least that is what it will probably turn out to be for me but I’m hoping instead it will be 21 days of happiness because of the end result.

I see my target in my head and I know after my 3 pound weight gain I don’t have the luxury of waiting a few more days to start my diet because too much time has passed and too many pounds have found their way onto my body.  I plan to be fitting much more comfortably in my work pants at the end of 21 days.  So we’ll see how everything goes.